I am so sorry to hear that your news was bad and especially around Christmas. My first rescue, Gertie, after a month of having her I took her to the vet because she would fall over sometimes. Once they did x-rays they found tumors riddling her body, my poor old girl (she was 10). After only a month of being her forever mom, I was devastaed, so I can imagine what it must be like when you have your baby for 9 years. It took me about a day to stop crying, but then, for the next two months, Gert got everything and anything she wanted. These types of situations are so upsetting, but once you get over the initial shock, I am sure you will spend as much time as possibly doating on her. From your posts, it is evident how much you love your girl, I am praying so hard that you are able to keep her with you for as long as possible.