Orson Has Died

[KELLY W]

Jeff, I am so very sorry for your loss. I have been following Orson's story since the begining. I have been sick the past few days and havent been online. When I saw the thread today, I immediatly started crying. I have been praying for you both. I guess God decided it was Orson's time to come home because he had fullfilled his purpose here. I believe that purpose was to let you experience love in it's purest form. When we decide to be owned by these wonderful furry beings we know that eventually we will have our hearts ripped out when they pass, but it doesnt matter. The love they give us is worth all the heart ache in the world. One day the two of you will meet again to romp and play with no worries at all. Until then, he will be your angel and will continue to watch over you while you are here. I send lots of hugs to you and your family.

Love Kelly and Muggsey

 

[CarolM]

Your beloved Orson

I sit here with tears ... hugs to you Jeff.... and you are right, love is all that matters and you loved and will always love Orson and he knows it.... I am so so sorry to hear of his passing.... it is when we give all we can and do all we can and it doesnt change the outcome. Please remember that Orson had everything a dog could want when you made him your companion.... you loved him and that love is still there and you fought for him and tried all you knew to do. He knows that and I'm sure he is saying, hey dad.... I know you tried....and I'll be here waiting for you and I know my fate was served best in your hands.... I am so sorry Jeff, I had much the same experience with my Sarah and cancer and Jeglum and it was overdosing of the vincristine by a vet ( under the direction of Jeglum) that killed her........ I live with the guilt. We try, we love, we anguish over our actions but our dogs know that we would have done anything and everything possible.... Orson is with God... and all the others who are there and he is now just wishing that you will be ok..... so mourn, cry and let it out..... and just know that you forever changed Orsons life as he has forever changed yours..... hugs to you from me and my white boxer Pete.... and prayers to Orson as he runs through heaven ....a thought to you..... I whispered to my 2 boxers before they had passed....... ~*Wait for me at heavens gates, for I shall not enter without you......................((((((hugs))))))

 

[jeffisonline]

Very difficult...

Coming home from work on Friday night, and again last night was very hard for me, probably the most difficult thing has been coming home, and Orson no longer being there to greet me like he always has.

I also keep having flashbacks to the night he was put to sleep, and I still see him standing there looking at me and wagging his little tail when I came back to the room.

My mom told me that when I left the room to tell the front desk that I was going to take Orson to get a happy meal, that he got upset that I wasn't there and stood by the door waiting for me.

All these things hurt really deeply.
I'm having a hard time with all this stuff, I went away to Miami for a month last year, and all I thought about the whole time was going home to see Orson.
I can't imagion this ever getting any easier.
At least when it comes time for me to pass, I can go knowing I have the best thing in the world waiting for me, and I will never fear dying again!
Nobody wants to die, but when the time comes, it's great to know we have the best things waitng for us when we get there.

Thanks for all of your continued support, it really does mean more than I could ever describe.

Jeff

 

[bigears]

Jeff,
No one is going to tell you that this will be easy, but there will come a time when thoughts of Orson are dominated by all of the happy memories that you shared. Be strong and be patient, most of all with yourself. Be glad that your flashback includes a wagging tail. From what you have shared with us, the vision that chooses to replay in your head could be much worse. Falling in love is a dangerous business. It is guaranteed to hurt like hell at some point. Be glad that you were brave enough to love someone so much. Many people envy you and Orson...that you were blessed with nine years together. He is your special angel, not greeting you at the door at 3am, but by your side all day long. It takes time, but it will get better. Remember, we are all here for you!

Allison

 

[luvfritz]

Jeff, my heart and tears go out to you. You have been blessed with a wonderful, loving friend in Orson. He was very blessed to have shared his life with you. Obviously you are a very loving, caring person and even though you feel the time is not right now for another boxer, there is one waiting somewhere for you to love and provide for. God Bless you and Orson,

Barbara

 

[Jan]

Jeff I am so sorry about Orson. He had a wonderful life with you and I'm sure that he has no regrets.

The memories will last forever and I know it is hard to believe right now, but the pain will fade with time.

Take care!

 

[sunnyboxer]

Jeff,

Just thinking about you alot this morning, I know this is very hard, but I hope today brings you a better day..

 

[jeffisonline]

another day...

I recieved a card from the Dr (vet) who is a friend of the family today, and he also brought a rosary that was blessed for Orson.
It was very touching, and I haven't been able to read the whole letter inside the card because the tears cloud my vision.

The reality still hasn't set in yet, I still think Orson is going to wake me up in the morning, or somehow find his way home.
I guess thats normal.

It's amazing how empty the house is without him, this big house is so empty without him inside of it...there is more to people and animals than just their body, the soul reflects so much energy, and it's obvious when there is no one home how empty it feels, but the presents makes the house feel full.
Orson's presents made the house feel warm, and full, now it's very empty...My mom even noticed it.

Thanks again.

Jeff

 

[Cindy Creel]

I've been thinking about you and I wondered how you were doing. The feelings you have are normal. Like they say, One day at a time. That is all you can do. Some days will be easier than others. O ur prayer from here are still with you.

Cindy

 

[CarolM]

one more thought

Jeff,
This may or may not help, but I work as a vet tech and have been with all too many people and their beloved pets when they had to put them to sleep. I have cried with them, held them and stayed with many a dog or cat long after the owners had left the rooms.. I leave a job where when people ask you, how was your day, I would simply say it was ok..... but I do know the affect this has....to have to make that decision.. I had to make it myself for my boxer. It's devastating.... but I have also talked with those same people days, weeks, months after that awful moment and they do say they still feel that beloved dog or cat around them...they never really leave us but urge us to go on without them.. there is a reason you are here and Orson was taken..~ and those people say they can at times hear that bark, feel that familiar brush against the leg, even catch their pets scent... what I am trying to say is Orson will never leave you... you both are imbedded in each other... and you both will meet again in a wonderful way as I will be reunited with my boxer. Heaven is made up of love and memories, so how could our dogs not be there? They are..... Not to be over dramatic but many times I have looked into the night sky and talked to my boxers and in the still of all that starlit sky, I feel them out there. and boy oh boy do I cry..they left our homes but never our hearts and now they are grander then we could ever imagine....they worry over us now.... we no longer have to worry over them... Orson doesnt want to see you so distraught....but talk to him....really talk to him.....he hears you....then when you can, maybe.. just maybe hear Orson whisper to you.....hey dad, pass on that great love....give it to another pet.. it may be months or years from now.... you will never ever replace him...thats impossible....but remember there's another one out there saying.....hey, can you try to love me too? Just a thought Jeff.....but remember.... that love for Orson is and was a once in a lifetime thing..... we all here understand that. We have that same love for our dogs.... you seem like a helluva guy with a great heart.... just hang in there.. and remember Orson loves you just as you love him..... ~ with most sincere thoughts..
Carol and ~*Petey*~