i am so sorry to hear about doc, and hope that he is doing ok. i know about BCM as well, as we lost our peanut to this on 2-15 of this year at age 6. i know it is and the questioning of "when do i know that it is time?" "when do i know that they are suffering?" but as i was told prior to letting peanut go "you just know" and its true. We did know, We never thought we would lose her so young, or that we would have to make that decision. but when the time comes you will probably know its time to let him go and i hope that he is comfie and snuggling with you now. it sounds like he has led a wonderful life and been surrounded by your love. just continue to provide that as you obviously will, and know that by doing so you are doing all that you can. he will let you know when he is ready. you will in your heart know.
our peanut declined rapidly, even though we saw it happen over months, the last few days were pretty clear and fast. she had very labored breathing and she did begin to swell quite a bit, and on her last night with us, her feet and legs swelled (that is what prompted us to take her in the next day). it had become painfully obvious that it was time, but you have to believe that you are doing what is right for them when that time comes, even though saying goodbye is the very last thing we humans are ready to do.
i will send my heart and energy your way tonight as i fall asleep and send my love to our dear peanut....i will be doing the same for your sweet doc here on earth.
callie
mommy to peanut 10-6-98---2-15-05