Nicole - I had a Roxy - I lost her at 13.5 years. I planned for her passing by adopting Mick. He was such an amazing gift and really helped me deal with the loss of Roxy. Mick had a heart problem and we always thought we would lose him quickly (probably while running around), but it didn't happen like that. He starting having strange symptoms and we knew something was wrong - our vet was chasing after multiple things but we weren't getting anywhere (over the course of a few weeks). He got worse very fast and we had to make the impossible decision to let him go. I was miserable, my husband was miserable - we couldn't stand to be in the house. It was too quiet, too empty. We don't have children, our dogs have always been our kids and we have taken care of them like kids. They are with us, with my Mom or at doggie daycare - they are spoiled and rarely left alone. I cried non-stop for 3 days, then I decide this is not getting me anywhere. So I contacted a few breeders and then started searching boxer rescues across the US. My husband would have waited, he knew we would have another dog, but thought it was way too soon. I was on a mission -- selfishly I had a hole in my heart to fill and I honestly thought it might take a month or more to work my way through the rescue process, especially since I was looking outside our local region. The stars aligned and I found "Maxx", now Cooper. He was the first one that really caught my eye and I completed an application. I completed several other applications, but the rescue that had Maxx contacted me back within an hour, we shared e-mails, then talked. Long-story short it only took a few days for the adoption to go through and we made a 12-hour round trip to pick up Cooper. For us - it was meant to be....Cooper slept with us from the first night and has fit into our life perfectly. There is a thread under "General Rescue Forum - Meet Cooper" that has a bit more. Cooper is not Mick and Mick was not Roxy - but I love what is unique about each of them and cherish the memories and pictures I have. I really don't work without a dog around, so this was the right decision for me (and my husband now admits for him too). But this is a very personal decision - you will know when the time is right for YOU. Again - I am so very sorry. I know how much it hurts.