Hello All-This is my first post. I frantically started searching for resources and/or people who knew anything about what I was experiencing... I found Boxerworld and saw how so many of you know exactly how I am feeling. Monday 1/3, we helped our sweet girl, Abby to the Bridge. Abby was diagnosed with lymphoma in August and fought a good 4 1/2 months until it won. She came out of remission when we returned from visiting our families over Christmas break. Within 10 days she became a different dog. It was heartbreaking to watch. At the same time that this was happening, I got the call that I would be deploying within 4 days to help with the tsunami relief efforts (I'm in the Navy).
I began panicking... How could I leave her in this condition? How could I make my husband decide alone when to put her to sleep? HOW COULD I NOT BE THERE FOR HER IN HER FINAL MOMENTS??? I OWE THAT TO HER!! Well, I suppose that God works in mysterious ways. Within 2 days of the call, Abby went downhill fast... She stopped eating, began vomiting what little water she could stomach and starting living in her doghouse outside. I believe that she wanted us to say goodbye together. She didn't want me to leave her and worry. She wanted me to be at peace and for me to know that it was ok. She would be in a much better place where she is happy and healthy. So she let me know when it was time and I was able to be there and hold her, whispering over and over how much I loved her. I am eternally grateful for that.
My thoughts are with you others who have also had the same week as mine. I take comfort in the fact that all of our wonderful Boxer Angels are at the Bridge together.
Abby was my first baby. I know how endearing our Boxers are to us, and so you guys will understand this... I made a tribute to her, and if you are interested and have time, I'd love to share it with you.
http://www.ilovedmypet.com/view.asp?id=9249
I look forward to posting here more, and hopefully in the future when my heart doesn't ache so much, it will be happy posts with a new puppy.
I also left behind a wonderful husband and an 18-month old. I have no idea how long I will be deployed. There are no words for how difficult this week has been for me.
I began panicking... How could I leave her in this condition? How could I make my husband decide alone when to put her to sleep? HOW COULD I NOT BE THERE FOR HER IN HER FINAL MOMENTS??? I OWE THAT TO HER!! Well, I suppose that God works in mysterious ways. Within 2 days of the call, Abby went downhill fast... She stopped eating, began vomiting what little water she could stomach and starting living in her doghouse outside. I believe that she wanted us to say goodbye together. She didn't want me to leave her and worry. She wanted me to be at peace and for me to know that it was ok. She would be in a much better place where she is happy and healthy. So she let me know when it was time and I was able to be there and hold her, whispering over and over how much I loved her. I am eternally grateful for that.
My thoughts are with you others who have also had the same week as mine. I take comfort in the fact that all of our wonderful Boxer Angels are at the Bridge together.
Abby was my first baby. I know how endearing our Boxers are to us, and so you guys will understand this... I made a tribute to her, and if you are interested and have time, I'd love to share it with you.
http://www.ilovedmypet.com/view.asp?id=9249
I look forward to posting here more, and hopefully in the future when my heart doesn't ache so much, it will be happy posts with a new puppy.
I also left behind a wonderful husband and an 18-month old. I have no idea how long I will be deployed. There are no words for how difficult this week has been for me.
