Mine too, I have never lost a family member to the C word, but in the Army I was a medic and worked on an oncology ward, alot of vet's with cancer essentailly went there to die, I would tell myself "I am not going to let that happen to me" here I am, still smoking and hating it and myself more and more everyday. I want to have kids one day and of all the circles I want to break, the smoking one is up there, I NEVER want my kids to smoke, and I am old enough to know that I must lead by example.
I am so very sorry for everyones losses. Nicotine and cigarettes in particullar take too many people from this earth far before their time, It is a horrible, horrible addiction.
Jenn