Please pray for Josi

[msjosi]

I had to run into to work for a little this morning unfortunately, but daddy stayed home with her until I got back. I feel so guilty leaving her at a time like this, but I know she enjoyed her one on one time and I have to come with grips that no matter how much I want to be there with her for her last breath, things don't always work out that way for all sorts of reasoning. When my mom was in a hospice home dying from multiple sclerosis, I sat bedside watching her every breath hoping each day would be the day so she would no longer be suffering. It was horrible to see, but in a way I think it has prepared me some for what is to be with Josi. The morning my mom passed all seemed to be the same and I told my dad that I was stepping out of the room for a minute to grab a cup of coffee in the lounge. I didn't even make it to the coffee pot before I heard my dad yelling for me to come back. In the few seconds I was gone, she chose to take her last breath. I firmly believe that she waited for me to leave the room and that is how she wanted it to be. I'm going to take the same belief that if Josi is to go on her own terms, she will call the shots and I will accept whatever her wishes shall be.

Now on to a lighter note...daddy scrambled Josi up some eggs for breakfast this morning and she has also gone through two of her usual chicken thighs, chicken hearts, and vegetables meal. We have also been experiencing an unbearable heat wave over the last week with temperature easily hitting 100 which makes life miserable for Josi just to go outside and take care of business. I wish it was cooler so I could put a bed for her outside and she could take in all the outdoor smells and the sun's heat, but that is out of the question. It remains in the 90s even in the late evenings. Right now she is taking a nice nap and I surrounded her with many of her favorite toys from her toy box. She wasn't the slightest bit interested in playing, but she hasn't really been ever since she came home from the hospital six months ago. It still is a sight to see and it reminds me of the movie ET when he is in the girls closet hiding

I am noticing that Josi's bruising seems to be localized to the left side of her body when you are looking straight down on top of her. Not too sure what that means, maybe that is the side the liver is on. Her paws continue to look and feel better. With two almost completely back to normal and the other two still fairly swollen underneath but they are much softer now and not so hard by touch, but on the tops you would even notice swelling unless I pointed it out and her fingernails are shining through again. I definitely have to agree that she is living up to her name and I am glad that she is doing part of Grunt's name proud Well gotta go...she is demanding that I share with her my mini-bagel with chicken salad on it. I will post again soon.

 

[SweetCody]

Well come on mama, give that sweet Diva her bagel. Glad that she had some alone time with Daddy, that is important.
My grandmother did what your mother did, she waited for the first moment that she was alone, 3 whole minutes, too die. She was always a loner and I feel that that is the way she wanted it. I think Ms Josi is not ready to go yet, I think she still has the will to fight some, after all she has just the most yummy sounding diet around. Sending feel good vibes to you all for a quiet and uneventful evening. Hugs to the princess from us.

 

[My Boxer]

Glad to hear she is up bopping around. Nothing like a good nights rest and a bath to make a girl feel brand new. Josi is so lucky to have you guys as parents, feeding her such yummy food. Hope you all have another good day.

I love it. You go sweet Warrior Princess Josi! Sending strength, and healing vibes.

 

[ForeverMama]

Sounds like you guys are having a wonderful day together. Sweet Warrior Princess Josi, you are an inspiration to us all. Keep it up girlfriend. Lots of love and prayers coming your way for another quiet loving evening/night. I'll check in again as soon as I get to work in the morning.

Sweet dreams.

 

[liamsmom]

hubby's mom passed away when we were all at home.
we all sat bedside as well.......until one night someone from hospice told us all to leave. they explained that sometimes a person will linger if the family is maintaining a bedside vigil. we all left to go home and at 6am she was gone.
so, staci, you are right. whatever will be...is going to be. i'm so glad you feel that way. i used to beat myself up for leaving dakota when i had to. and during his last hours...he showed me that he wasn't going to pass on his own. not as long as i was waiting and watching. that's why we had to help him to the bridge.
by now, i'm hoping that josi has gotten a piece of that bagel. it sounds good to me! i haven't had lunch yet myself.

 

[msjosi]

Josi loved her shared mini-bagel except the fact that she had to share it with me and she just finished snacking on somemore steak!! When she was diagnosed with hemangiosarcoma I completely cut-out almost every carb possible from her diet even the carbier vegetables sticking with green leafy ones, but in coming to terms with the now inevitable all those rules went out the door and she sucked down some angel hair pasta last night and her bagel today I am boiling up some fresh chicken thighs for her now and I think I will add some mashed potatoes to her dinner too Nothing but the best for my baby girl, I just wish we could have the chance to spoil her more. I hope there is a smoregesboard in heaven were doggies can eat whatever their hearts desire and they don't have any weak stomachs anymore so all those "not so good for you foods that taste so so good" don't upset their tummies either.

 

[liamsmom]

oh my goodness...you're making me even more hungry than i already am
enjoy every bit of it josi!!!!

 

[WAT]

I hope there is a smoregesboard in heaven were doggies can eat whatever their hearts desire and they don't have any weak stomachs anymore so all those "not so good for you foods that taste so so good" don't upset their tummies either.

If there is be assured Blaze is always 1st in line and sneaking back for 2nds. Every afternoon at 4:00, I would feel this this big paw plop on my leg, he was telling me it was time to eat, and it was time to eat now! I miss my boy :( Minx is so nonchalant about eating sometimes it is 6:00 before I realize I did not feed her yet.

 

[WeasleRocky]

my grandmother passed from Alzheimers and she held on so long, after being in hospice also, but there was always someone there with her until one nite it was time for me to go home to my family and my mom had decided to walk me out because it was raining hard and it was late, as soon as we walked out and waited for the elevator we heard the nurse go in to change the bedding and she asked us to come back in right away, she had already passed, it was horrible thinkin it was me that made my mom miss her last breathe, but after time I realized it was probably the way my gramma wanted it to be, she wouldn't have wanted us to see her body go thru that last few moments of life... Same thing happened with our boxer/rotti mix Tyson, he passed when I couldn't be there for him, it was awful, the guilt of not being there for him, he was always there to watch over the kids from the time they were babies until they were 6 & 9, there with a gentle paw, never knocking them down with his size and always enjoyed a good lounge in the shaded grass, anyways I think he loved US ALL so much he wanted it that way, easier on me and his dad and the 2 kids he helped raise...

Miss Josi, I am praying for you honey, you enjoy your gourmet menu sweetie, mom and dad love you so much and so do all of us... you truely are so special... sending you feel good vibes and hugs, and a kiss from Rocky:p

 

[Chancejesi]

If we do really get the chance to come back in a second life I want to come back as a boxer that is loved by someone the way we love our babies Staci you and Brian are the perfect examples of the best pet parents I know(via the internet of course ). Your love and her will to fight just shine through in each and every one of your posts. I just hope and pray that if I am ever in the situation you have found youself in with your girl I am able to muster up half the strength you have shown throughout your whole ordeal. You both are truley an inspiration not just to us as boxer owners but to the human race in general. Please give Miss Josi a hug and a kiss from Chance and myself and please know that all of you are always in our prayers and thoughts PS Next time please give Miss Josi the whole min bagel not just half it is just a min bagel after all.