I am so lucky to have you all here for support, love, and understanding...thank you is not enough, but I don't know what else to say. Josi had a good night under the circumstances...continued to eat,drink,go to the bathroom, and sleep well. Her gums are still fairly pale this morning so my guess is she probably has a slow bleed, but who knows. I left her oncologist a voicemail this morning and an emergency doctor just called back and said Dr.McFadden (the oncologist) said she would be happy to see her bright and early Monday morning. Although I know there is nothing she can really do, it may help us to get a clearer picture of what is going on or should I say timeframe, but I will leave the decision to Josi on whether she wants to go tomorrow. It is so hard to watch her because she is still fighting so hard with such a spirit to keep on living, unfortunately her body is fighting against her. We have fought so many battles successfully with Josi it is just so hard to sit here helplessly knowing this is one we just can not fight. I continue to read all her get well messages from her buddies to her and I swear it is if she knows and feels the love. Everytime I start crying which is just about every minute my precious baby licks away my tears as if to say do not cry mommy, when it is my time all the boxers who went before me will show me the way. Josi is our first baby and as you can tell our lives revolve around her. We can't even think of how empty and sad our home will be when she is no longer around. Ok no more negative...continue to send your love and positive vibes her way. I think her grandparents are going to come over today to visit which will most definitely bring a pep in her step. I will post again later.
