Just wanted to post and update on Josi...since she has been getting stronger and walking a little better, I have started taking her on short but progressively longer walks (5 minutes or so) and she has been loving it. Well on Tuesday we went the farthest we had gone and she did great and came home and napped. When she woke up and put her back legs down she let out a blood curling scream/moan that brought instant tears to my eyes. She made the sound again when she squated to pee. It was terrible to say the least, but luckily she has not made that sound again and seems to be fine...so we are chalking it up to a tight muscle possibly after her "long" walk. On the other front Josi's gums have been noticably pale this week which has not been an issue since two weeks after her splendactomy. I know the reality with hemangiosarcoma is that it generally attacks the heart or liver which would cause internal bleeding ie. pale gums, but she still seems so spirited and spunky, so I am choosing to ignore the signs whether real or not. I can't fix this illness which is very hard for me, but I choose to ignore the nasty creature that decided to invade her body without notice. Of course I love,kiss and hug on her more, although I didn't think that was possible but we are living life like it was the monday night before Christmas when all seemed so normal in my world. Everytime I let the awful thoughts of her not being here someday creep into my mind, I find that I can not control my sadness and that is of no use to Josi. So with that said, please send those boxerworld vibes that all is still well with my baby girl and she continues to live each and everyday as her spoiled rotten diva self.
