Our Beautiful Boy is gone

[atlasmom911]

))))Tears(((( I am so sorry you lost your sweet baby. Whenever I read a post like this it brings back memories of when I had to let my sweet baby Abby go. She was in so much pain. When we lose one of our babies they take a peice of our heart with them. It will get better with time but the hole in your heart never heals. Just remember all of the wonderful times you had with him. I know he will be waiting for you with all of our babies. My Abby will watch over him. I bet they are running and playing without any pain. Godspeed sweet ...Hugs Linda

 

[Gruntsmom]

I am so touched by every one of your posts, and my tears flow, because many of you know what I am going through, and you've taken the time to offer your comfort. It has helped so much, because no one that I know, knows like you do, how special our babies are and what they mean to us.

It's been nearly 2 days since my precious boy has been gone, and I am having a very hard time. My heart has been breaking little by little for awhile now, because I knew the day would come, sooner rather than later, when I would lose him. It was just a matter of time that he would get sick more frequently, which that did happen last year, and then there would come the time when he would get very, very sick. The reality was aging and deterioration of diseased organs. But it was a shock to me when it came, because he always recovered. This time, he just didn't have the strength anymore. The scenario of this past week is vividly playing back over and over again, and it hurts so much, I can't stop crying. Being here in our home, where at every turn, and throughout the day and night, there are so many reminders of him. I can't put anything away or out of sight. I have to leave everything where it was when he was here. I have to have the pillow that he laid on when he crossed right there to hug, I have to leave his toys where they were before we took him to the hospital, I have to lay on his bed and smell him again and again, I have to talk to his picture, the snaggletooth one. I know I'm hanging on to him the only way I can now. Will I ever let go? Maybe when we bring his ashes home, I can, maybe. I just want him home with me.

Right now I am thinking of him, playing with your babies who are at the Bridge, waiting for us. How he loved to run, how he loved to play!

 

[Slobberchops]

I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better,but there isn't at this stage.
You'll have Grunt with you always,when you get his ashes,I realise it's not the same thing of course,and you'd much prefer to have him back with you,burning round the yard and giving you kisses.
You're being very brave,sharing all your heartache with us,and we do understand,hugs from me to you.

 

[Gruntsmom]

I am sorry that I missed your enitre thread being so tied up with Josi's illness. Your love for Grunt literally comes through the computer in your posts. I am so very sorry you had to let Grunt go to the bridge, I can only imagine the loneliness you must be feeling now. I fear Josi time is now very soon and I only hope I am able to handle it with the grace and dignity you have. I will take comfort that Grunt will keep her safe on her way to the bridge. Through loads of tears, I am truly so sorry from the bottom of my heart.

There is no real way to prepare yourself for the time when our Beloved Ones leave us, I tried and it didn't work. Josi means as much to you as Grunt does to me, and I know that you are loving her like there's no tomorrow and doing everything you can for her, and that's what counts, that's all you can do.

Grunt knew about Josi, for I often said to him as he lay here next to me while I was on BW, "We need to send some healing vibes to Josi" and "Let's send some Boxer vibes to Josi today!!" - and he would give me those big soft eyes. So, yes, he will keep her safe, when the time comes. He was very protective of the ladies.

 

[auntthelm]

I feel so much for you. The raw pain of losing such a loved member of you family is so difficult, almost impossible to bare. Of course I always felt terrible when I learned of the death of a beloved pet, but until I lost mine I couldn't have imagine the emptiness that goes on and on. Our furbabies share so much of our lives and love and when they are gone the beautiful memories have to keep us going.

We miss our girl so much, my daughter still sleeps with Crystal's collar under her pillow. She has not allowed me to remove Crystal's bed from her room. I still have the treats on the counter and her pictures are throughout the house. I have a picture of her on the fridge and I touch it each time I pass by it. My tears still flow so easily. Yes, it does get easier but the truth of the matter is I return to Boxer World many times a day just to get my Boxer fix.

I wish you peace during this most difficult time. Just take one day at a time and know that the you were blessed to share your life with a Grunt a beautiful Boxer boy.

 

[TossBranAbi]

I am so sorry to read of this terrible news. You ask it you will ever be able to let go, you will never completely let go but eventually you will loosen the reigns a little. I lost my baby two years ago and it was so very hard for me. I struggled and wondered how I would ever live again without her. Two years later, I still think of her daily, I kiss her urn everynight before bed, I wear a necklace with her ashes in it 24/7 but now it is easier to think of the good times. It made me rest easier knowing that she was pain free and having fun at The Bridge.

Know that Grunt knows you did the best for him and he is thankful for that. He is keepin a watchful eye over your family and everything is right in his eyes. Keep your chin up and remember what a great life he had with you.

Run free sweet boy

 

[butlersmom]

I have followed Grunt's condition and my heart sank when I read the title of your post here. As I read your tribute, memories of having to make that same decision came flooding back, and my eyes filled with tears. For you having just gone through this, and for those of us who have been where you are. I am so, so sorry. Getting Scarlett's ashes back for me was as hard as having to let her go. But as the time passed by, knowing that I have her here with me has been a comfort. She is in her rightful place on a table in my living room; with her family where she always loved to be. Not a days goes by that I don't touch that box containing her ashes and tell her how much I love her. She's been gone nearly 6 years. Please know that you and your husband will be in my thoughts.

Run free, Grunt......and send your mama some sign that things will be OK.

 

[fireangel]

Oh My I am so very sorry. As soon as I saw this post I was in tears. I am very sorry your baby was so sick. I hope that you can find comfort in your memories. We send boxer kisses and hugs your way.

Run free sweet baby!

 

[JulieJay]

I am so sorry to hear about Grunts passing.

What you and yuor husband are going through I can't even imagine as i have not had to take anyone to the bridge.
Please now that we are all thinking of you and your family.

Run sweet Grunt and be happy and pain free....

 

[crowpete]

I cannot tell you how long it took me to get through your post... TEARS! Its crazy how each and every baby on here in a way becomes a part of all of us. I wish there was something I could do to eas your pain. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your DH. HUGS

Godspeed sweet Grunt