Cami is home and asleep on the couch. I guess I got my wish.
It is bitter sweet. In order for her to come home they had to tap the fluid from around her lungs. They got nearly a liter.
We brought her home knowing that we are on borrowed time. Maybe a day. Maybe two. If we are lucky three.
She came home and headed to the back door. Went outside and went potty #1 & #2. Started to trot to the door and I nearly had a coronary. That is what she is used to so that is what she did.
She came in and went directly to her water bowl and drank and drank and drank. Got up on the couch and fell fast asleep for about an hour.
She happily woke up to take her first dose of meds for the evening. Ate 1/2 can of food. She was eating a prescription diet (IAMS ID--I think) and they sent us home with it. Sort of odd that I have always been such a stickler for her diet and now I don't give a damn. She can eat whatever she wants. High fat, full of grains, crappy ingredients.....who cares.
She got up on the chair with her daddy while he was eating his eggs and got a few sample of those as well. At this point seems to have a good appetite.
Went back out to potty again #1 & #2.....back out again after that for another #1. This was all inside of 10 minutes. I swear they were not taking her out nearly enough which is what we were thinking all along.
Went to remove the bandage on her leg where the IV port was. She immediately started to lick at it and got it bleeding. We wrapped it back up and then it seemed as if it were bothering her really bad I MEAN REALLY BAD. She became manic. Couldn't stop moving her leg. Couldn't find a comfortable place to lay down. Started breathing short quick breaths. We thought we were heading back to the ER only this time it was to let her go.
I was petting her and could feel the heart beating erratically (a-fib). It would come in waves. As soon as it would start going crazy the freaky breathing started. It lasted about 20 minutes.
It is gone now and she is resting on the couch again. I guess this is something that we will have to get used to over the next few days.
She is here at home where she is loved. I know her time with us is short but at least she isn't with strangers and we just couldn't let her last days be somewhere that she wasn't comfortable.
At the first sign of distress or discomfort we will let her go. That time is not now.
Hug your babies a little tighter tonight. Heartache like this isn't even explainable.
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