i can imagine your pain... my first boxer ever, nikita had 11 tumors...she slowly went downhill..i finally, like you, had to ask god to give me the strength to put her down...forgetting that i needed the strength to deal with her being gone...i will never get over her. it has been since august, and i am still coping. i have one of her puppies that has her cheerfulness, and attitude...i thank nikki for giving me her everyday. and i thank god that he gave me nikki...she was my kid...my love and soul. but, i know that dogs do not live as long as humans do, and you have to do what is best for them. I knew that i should always live each day like it was her last. and i did...i am grateful for her. i have to move on...i am just praying that one day i can. i know exactly how you feel and i mourn for you... good luck...
love always:
kelly and chloe~