I've felt the presense of many of my angel dogs around me after they died. We all grieve and heal in our own way. I have a feeling when the time is right another Boxer will find its way into your familys heart...probably when you least expect it. For now though,get a few good nights sleep. With Kiddo I was getting up every 1/2 hour to an hour towards the end which really left me sleep deprived.