My 7 Yrs old has cancer

[terrip]

I haven't been on in awhile. I am SO incredibly sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Its ok to grieve. Our beautiful boxer babies become such a huge part of our daily lives. Then they live on in our memories.

 

[catcrazy56]

I'm glad you feel better bringing Rocky's ashes home and that you have a memorial tribute set up for him. Now that's done you will have to take one day at a time. Running into people who haven't seen you since or know Rocky has passed will send you crying again (I know) but every day you will get a little stronger.

 

[kidzarme]

Vicky, I am so sorry! I just saw the update on Rocky. I'm just so terribly sorry that we couldn't do anything to help you. I feel awful for you. Please accept my sympathy and know that we here care about your loss.

 

[Rocky's-Mom]

I can never say enough thanks for all the wonderful support and response. It has been Boxerworld and all it's wonderful people that have given me the strength to get thru this past year and this past week. So many of you know what I am feeling and others can imagine the loss of their loved boxer and feel my pain. Yes Wanda you are correct I didn't realize how exhausted I was. It has been a long time since I didn't have to get up several times thru the night or just wake up to check on Rocky...breathing, cover him up or just rub his head. I wouldn't take anything for all my special moments but I am tired both mentally and physically. You don't realize while you are in trying times how it wears on you until it's over. Today has been better. I teared up only once and have been able to talk about Rocky and smile. I bragged to soon...I am crying better get off here...thanks to all....You're the best!! Always Rocky's Mom

 

[Donna1969]

And it will be quite a while before you break those habits of waking frequently in the night, reaching over to pet his sweet head, listening for his breathing etc. For some time after Blizzy left for her home at the Bridge, I woke up several times a night just to look over the side of the bed to see if she were covered. I filled her water and food bowls several times before I "remembered" she wouldn't be there to eat it.

And when you think you will always reflect on him and his memories, you will tear up out of nowhere. i did just that yesterday, leaving my friends house which is on the same road as the vet's office that Blizzy went to. I passed a certain point and "flashed back" to the day my husband drove she and I to the vets office on her final day with us. Just a few tears, loads of memories flooded my head, and then I looked up and smiled knowing that she was happy, that she had many many cherished and loved other Boxers up there with her and that she was not alone nor unhappy!

I just want to let you know that we do understand each and every emotion, each and ever tear, and that it will ease in time. Know that when the time is right, as I've said before, your warrior Rocky will find that perfect Soul, put it into the perfect body and send that pup your way, his gift to you! And I know, like in the case of Carson with Blizzy's personality etc, a bit of Rocky will be in that pup!

 

[Rocky's-Mom]

Thanks all...I know each day will get better. It was one week ago today and so far I have not cried. I realize he was in pain and hanging on for us and that was so not fair to him...he deserved to be set free. We knew it was coming and have had time to adjust if tehre is such a thing. We have talked about Rocky and smiled and laughed some this week. He wouldn't want us being sad that we both know and most important he knew how much he was loved...ok tears are swelling I am going for now...love you all...Rocky's Mom Forever

 

[LaurieD]

We love you and Rocky too and I hope we can all stay in touch through Boxer World. It is over a year and my husband calls it my Heidi shrine that I have in our bedroom. On his dresser I have her ashes, her collar and two pictures of my boys and her. I think about her all the time. My husband brought home a wonderful chocolate lab (4 years old) whose owner was sick and no one was taking care of him this past Mother's day. I was so mad, didn't think I was ready to get another dog. Do really love him now but my kids keep on asking when we are getting another Boxer puppy. So I guess I will end up with 2 dogs! Hopefully this summer.
My thoughts are with you.

 

[Rocky's-Mom]

Thanks Laurie....My husband said that we needed to get away for a couple of days. Since Rocky has been sick we have stayed home with him so this weekend we took off. We had purchsed Rocky while our son was in college which 2 1/2 hours east of here so anyways here we go and my husband said do you want to drive by the house where we got Rocky and I said sure so we found the house and they had moved. As we turned the corner there was a little girl walking a young boxer. My husband stops and ask her where they bought the dog and there was a car behind us and I told my husband people are going to think we are trying to abduct the child and all we wanted was the boxer.... We both laughed and drove off. Then today at work there was a beautiful boxer across the street. We miss Rocky so much but know he is out of pain. We both agreed that we will get another boxer. No boxer will take our Rocky's place but life is way to short not to have a boxer to love and be loved by. I am adjusting some what...of course I have had an extra year to prepare for this time...not that you are ever ready to give them up. I still cry and miss him terribly...he will always be our precious angel......Rocky's Mom forever

 

[TossBranAbi]

It is good to hear you are doing better. Even though we all knew Rocky would leave all too soon, I think it hit everyone here at BW. So many of us were following his story and thinking and praying about him, you and your family. Like you said, it will take time but it sounds as though you are adjusting. It makes it a little easier when you reason how much fun he is having no and no longer having to battle the cancer beast. I am sure you are relieved that he is healthy again and your body is relieved you can get a full night sleep.

I can see the headline now, "a couple seen trying to abduct girl, they say they only wanted the boxer" Keep your chin up and the perfect baby will come you way. In the mean time, pamper yourself, you deserve it.

 

[Donna1969]

I am sure when the time is right, Rocky will consult with Blizzy, Kiddo and all the others who waited patiently for Rocky to come to the Bridge. They will all have a "power meeting" of sorts and find that perfect soul to put into the cutest of all boxer bodies (big or small, young or old) and THEN and only THEN the baby you were meant to have will be found. Of course that one will never ever take Rocky's place but will start to ease the pain of his loss and start to fill the hole in your heart that Rocky left.

Blizzy and all that went before her must have had that same meeting..I got Carson out of that power session! He is my Blizzy-send

Sweetie, its still fresh..still raw. You will be sad for some time. But one day, perhaps soon, you will realize that you didn't cry each time you thought of Rocky but instead you laughed at his antics and only tears of laughing rolled down your face.