Luv, I will never get over losing her, and I do not want to. My anger has turned to the thoughts of how fortunate I am for getting to expierience the wonderful years we shared with our Bogey. My Bogey would not want to see me sad. Even if I had a slight frown on my face, she would find a way to make it go away. We got her ashes back yesterday and I cried even harder than the day she left this world. And I pray that I will always feel that way about her. She was our first Boxer. We learned more from her than we could have ever tought her ourselves. I am a better person, a better husband, and a better father because of Bogey. Maybe my sadness is getting better. Maybe my tears are further apart. She would want it that way. I am writing down my thoughts in a memoir everyday. It makes me feel better thinking about all of the great times, and funny antics I was blessed to have been witness to. My rationale for wanting to get another angel so soon is simple. My son, who is 4, missed out on her puppy years and I would not want him to miss another day without a Boxer in our household. And I do not want to spend another day without the pitter patter of small feet around my house. Bogey loved puppies and she would want us to be happy. I would give my left arm to spend one more day with her, but that isn't going to happen. She watches over me everyday and always will. I think my smile would make her much happier than this frown I've had for 7 days now. As for your loss, grieve as long as you need to, it's healthy and no one can tell you when to stop. You will know when you are on the road to recovery. It may take awhile, but it will happen. Those thoughts of anger and dispair will turn to happy joyous thoughts. Remember you have a place to share your thoughts and emotions anytime, she can always hear you. Good luck to you and Godspeen our angels!!!