sillyboys
Boxer Pal
Hello everyone,
I last logged in at the beginning of Sept. I would like to begin by saying ,thank you to everyone who posted notes and gave me/us such great encouragement on coping with Max's diagnosis on his stage 3 MCT. We took everyones advice and read tons of literature over the last month since our baby boy was diagnosed. Max 's cancer accelarated over the last 2 weeks and , well , the hard part is that I have to report that we Lost Max this morning. He was really sick over the weekend and went from enjoying his normal feeding to not eating at all by this last weekend. We celebrated his 8th birthday Saturday caring for him because he had become so week that he didnt/couldnt eat and what little water he drank he'd throw up with in minutes. As difficult as it is for me to talk about I find comfort in writing here because of all the understanding an positive vibes We recieved from everyone in our time of need when he was 1st diagnosed. I/we didnt think he would leave us so soon especially after having been told that he had 7 months to a year. It took only 1 month.
Last nite he threw himself on top of his favorite beach towel in the kitchen and laid there looking uncomfortable. I layed with him on the floor and he laid his head on my lap as I stroked him to sleep. Casper licked him all over as though he knew something was wrong. When we were asleep,Max made his way into the bedroom and tried to climb up into bed with us , I helped him up because he lost alot of use of his rear legs, he laid his head on my chest and we rubbed him as we tried to comfort him,but he barely slept. I called the vet 1st thing this morning and we rushed him there. He hadnt eaten for 2 days and couldn't keep anything in his system. When we got there he was weighed in and we were not surprised because you could see it but he had lost 8 lbs in a week and a half. the vet checked and there were more tumors around his legs and groin area that had grown /felt the size of a softball. He told us that he wouldnt make it beyond the next several days. We had to put our /my baby boy to sleep. we held him as the vet injected him and he tried so hard to comfort me, he placed his head on mine and just licked me slowly as he passed and he just lay in my arms, until I let go a while later. I loved him so much and he brought so much joy to us, I hope he knew I didnt want to let go. We've been struggling all day, Myself more so than momma, I 1st got him when he was 8 weeks old and momma came into our lives when he was 3 years old. I've had a really hard day today crying and crying and when we see casper looking for him we just brake down even harder.I had a gut feeling when we left this morning that we'd be returning without him, and he tried to look out the car window as we drove to the vets office and he loved car rides so much that i just looked and looke as I saw him fighting the wind for the last time.
Goodbye baby boy, you made my life so happy beyond your beliefs. Me and momma love you so much ,we're /I'm going to miss you so so much. Please know that I didnt want you to suffer anymore than you have been and I know you tried so hard to be yourself but you you couldnt. Thank you for your companionship and for showing Casper the way when he 1st joined us and became your brother, but 1st and foremost for showing me how to love unconditionally.............. I LOVE YOU MAX....................... DADDY
THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR BEING SO UNDERSTANDING AND ALLOWING ME TO SAY GOODBYE THIS WAY.......... Max's dad
I last logged in at the beginning of Sept. I would like to begin by saying ,thank you to everyone who posted notes and gave me/us such great encouragement on coping with Max's diagnosis on his stage 3 MCT. We took everyones advice and read tons of literature over the last month since our baby boy was diagnosed. Max 's cancer accelarated over the last 2 weeks and , well , the hard part is that I have to report that we Lost Max this morning. He was really sick over the weekend and went from enjoying his normal feeding to not eating at all by this last weekend. We celebrated his 8th birthday Saturday caring for him because he had become so week that he didnt/couldnt eat and what little water he drank he'd throw up with in minutes. As difficult as it is for me to talk about I find comfort in writing here because of all the understanding an positive vibes We recieved from everyone in our time of need when he was 1st diagnosed. I/we didnt think he would leave us so soon especially after having been told that he had 7 months to a year. It took only 1 month.
Last nite he threw himself on top of his favorite beach towel in the kitchen and laid there looking uncomfortable. I layed with him on the floor and he laid his head on my lap as I stroked him to sleep. Casper licked him all over as though he knew something was wrong. When we were asleep,Max made his way into the bedroom and tried to climb up into bed with us , I helped him up because he lost alot of use of his rear legs, he laid his head on my chest and we rubbed him as we tried to comfort him,but he barely slept. I called the vet 1st thing this morning and we rushed him there. He hadnt eaten for 2 days and couldn't keep anything in his system. When we got there he was weighed in and we were not surprised because you could see it but he had lost 8 lbs in a week and a half. the vet checked and there were more tumors around his legs and groin area that had grown /felt the size of a softball. He told us that he wouldnt make it beyond the next several days. We had to put our /my baby boy to sleep. we held him as the vet injected him and he tried so hard to comfort me, he placed his head on mine and just licked me slowly as he passed and he just lay in my arms, until I let go a while later. I loved him so much and he brought so much joy to us, I hope he knew I didnt want to let go. We've been struggling all day, Myself more so than momma, I 1st got him when he was 8 weeks old and momma came into our lives when he was 3 years old. I've had a really hard day today crying and crying and when we see casper looking for him we just brake down even harder.I had a gut feeling when we left this morning that we'd be returning without him, and he tried to look out the car window as we drove to the vets office and he loved car rides so much that i just looked and looke as I saw him fighting the wind for the last time.
Goodbye baby boy, you made my life so happy beyond your beliefs. Me and momma love you so much ,we're /I'm going to miss you so so much. Please know that I didnt want you to suffer anymore than you have been and I know you tried so hard to be yourself but you you couldnt. Thank you for your companionship and for showing Casper the way when he 1st joined us and became your brother, but 1st and foremost for showing me how to love unconditionally.............. I LOVE YOU MAX....................... DADDY
THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR BEING SO UNDERSTANDING AND ALLOWING ME TO SAY GOODBYE THIS WAY.......... Max's dad
