Goodbye sweet Killian

[K8IE]

Wow, I cannot tell you how much the support here has meant to me. Thank you everyone. I am still feeling so empty, but trying to keep myself busy and whenever I think of Killian and want to cry I make myself think of something good or funny and it helps. It is so hard to get used to the emptiness of the house and trying to adjust to making new habits in place of the things I did daily to care for him. I catch myself so many times in a day almost in a panic thinking I need to feed him or let him out and then my heart drops as I remember he is gone. It is a huge adjustment. I just had to thank you all and tell you how much it means to have people here that really care and know the pain of such a great loss.

 

[kpowell]

You are in my thoughts and prayers. The first week is the hardest, and then it seems to get a little easier. Killian was a very lucky to dog to have someone love him as much as you did.

 

[luvmrhead]

"It is so hard to get used to the emptiness of the house and trying to adjust to making new habits in place of the things I did daily to care for him. I catch myself so many times in a day almost in a panic thinking I need to feed him or let him out and then my heart drops as I remember he is gone. It is a huge adjustment"

The above description that you wrote.......its like Im writing about myself. That is EXACTLY how I've felt since I lost Harley. Empty, trying to adjust to new habits. I still catch myself wanting to change his water bowl. Or shovel a path in the snow for him. Or open the blinds every morning so he could "sunbathe" (how he loved that), wanting to race home to feed/let him out. Know that you're not alone. I dont know if that is of any comfort to you.......but I sure hope so. I know the kind of pain you're feeling. Its heartwrenching. But I know that one day........whenever that day is.........the pain will get easier and we'll smile more than cry. In the meantime, we just have to get through this terrible time with hope. Hope that our babies are happy now. Hope that one day.........we'll get to see our angels again.

Jen
Harley (Feb.00-Jan.07)

 

[Linda/NJ]

I am very sad to hear about Killian. Sending you lots of [[[HUGS]]] during this difficult time. Killian is looking over you now.

 

[SILLY6PAK]

God speed Killian.
I wish I had some wisdom to help ease your pain.
How is your 7 year old. Planting a tree with a marker will help you all I think. It helped me when I lost a precious horse and again with my boxer Jasmine.

Again my deepest sympathy.

 

[K8IE]

God speed Killian.
I wish I had some wisdom to help ease your pain.
How is your 7 year old. Planting a tree with a marker will help you all I think. It helped me when I lost a precious horse and again with my boxer Jasmine.

Again my deepest sympathy.

My little boy is doing really well, thanks for asking. It was really kind of neat, on the day that Killian died and we had decided to plant a tree I got a thing in the mail from the Arbor Day foundation. They offered ten free trees with membership. So we joined and will use one of the flowering dogwoods for Killian's tree. I still need to figure out what type of stone or marker we will get, but my little boy wants to write that he was a good dog on it. Today has not been the best day, but I know things will get easier with time...

 

[ZOE*BOXER]

Just let youself cry. Heck, I am sitting here crying myself. Killian was so lucky to have you and your family, just as you were lucky to have him. I cannot say I know how you exactly feel, but I have been there too. It is such a horrible, unshakeable feeling, but it will get easier and you will never stop loving him, he knows that. Just remember he loves you and wants you to be happy.

 

[RoxiesEcho]

I have a couple suggestions for you and your son. My mother has lost a few dogs the last couple of years and I always make a headstone for her. One time I purchased a round stepping stone at a local store and used craft paint to decorate it with Asti's name and dates. This past summer when she lost Lilly I made my own stepping stone and put Lilly's name with a flower in it using the clear pebbles you can get at WalMart or any type of craft store. Something like this might be a therapeutic way for your son to design something special to remember Killian by.

 

[Gruntsmom]

Thinking of you and your family, and remembering your sweet boy, Killian.

 

[K8IE]

I have a couple suggestions for you and your son. My mother has lost a few dogs the last couple of years and I always make a headstone for her. One time I purchased a round stepping stone at a local store and used craft paint to decorate it with Asti's name and dates. This past summer when she lost Lilly I made my own stepping stone and put Lilly's name with a flower in it using the clear pebbles you can get at WalMart or any type of craft store. Something like this might be a therapeutic way for your son to design something special to remember Killian by.

Thanks, that is a really good idea. I wish that I would have had the forethought to get an imprint of his paw before he died, but I was just too distraught. I think Dawson will enjoy helping to make a stone for Killian. I will see what the hobby lobby has this weekend.