Goodbye sweet Killian

[K8IE]

I did not think I would be posting in this forum for a long time... At least I hoped I wouldn't. We had to let our boy Killian go yesterday. He got worse and worse, the hacking and coughing, and he could not get comfortable or breathe well at all. He could not get any solid rest all night. He gave me a look that made me understand he had had enough so I made the call and took him to the vet. I stayed with him the whole time, sat in the floor with him in my lap, kissed him and cuddled him, and told him how much everyone loved him and what a good, brave boy he was. It was absolutely heartbreaking but he went very peacefully with his sweet head in my hands. I keep reliving the moment when I felt him slip away, a part of me died right then. I stayed with him for a while after, just holding him, and trying to let it sink in that he was really gone. I am so glad I was there, but it was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. My Dh and son both said goodbye before we left, my poor little boy was so sad when I told him that Killian would not be coming back home with me. Killian was like his big, furry brother. Killian was everything a Boxer should be. Always confident, loving, patient, gentle, trustworthy, silly and smart. I don't think that anyone was immune to his charms once they got to know him, he had a way of winning over even non dog lovers.. This is going to be a huge adjustment, not having our boy here. Just in the past day that he has been gone, I have been looking around the room for him, and have listened for the sound of his feet on the carpet or nails on the kitchen floor. It is too quiet. I keep thinking that I need to let him outside, then realize he is not here anymore. It is so hard to try to keep it together when I want to just cry my eyes out all the time. I know it will get better with time, but right now I feel so empty and lost. He was the sweetest boy.

Killian, thank you for all the unconditional love you gave while you were here. You were a special member of our family and you brought us so much joy. You will never be forgotten, we love you so much buddy.

Killian April 1997- January 2007

 

[morrissey11]

I'm so very sorry for your loss of Killian, I've been following your posts and know how ill he was.
You did the right thing to let him go but of course it's the hardest thing to do, I'm certain our babies understand when it is their "time" and thank us for that, but I know your heart is broken. He is with all our babies now and will always be with you, many hugs to you and family at this difficult time and special hugs to your son...Morrissey's mommy.

Godspeed sweet Killian , please say hi to Morrissey.

Morrissey, 02/1995 - 04/2006 x

 

[Gruntsmom]

I just came online to check to see if you had posted how Killian was doing over the weekend, and my heart sank when I saw the Rainbow Bridge forum on the main forum page. I'm sure I'm not alone when I say that your boy has been on our minds and in our thoughts since you began posting about him. I am at a loss for words to say how sorry I am. You, your family and your sweet boy shared a great love that is forever. Now he is free of pain and discomfort, waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge. Godspeed, dear Killian. You are loved and missed.

 

[x19er]

I'm so sorry you have lost your beloved Killian. I know nothing I can say can take away your pain but your in my thoughts.

Run free and fast at the bridge sweet boy.

 

[Valantar]

I have been following your other post about Killian. I am very sorry to hear that you lost your precious boy yesterday. I hope you find some comfort in knowing that Killian is no longer suffering with pain and discomfort. You and your family are in my thoughts during this difficult time.

Godspeed, Killian.

 

[ILuvBruiser]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know its very hard on your family. I am sending you my thoughts and prayers.

 

[countryboxer]

Godspeed sweet Killian...my deepest thoughts are prayers are with you at this time...it's not easy but our babies are at the Bridge with no problems waiting for us.

derek
Skittles-11/19/01-12/8/06

 

[paysmom]

I'm so sorry of the loss of you your Killian yesterday. He will be missed by all of us who felt like we knew him too in a special way from all of your posts.
Godspeed sweet boy- you are loved by many.

Please remember you're in our thoughts and prayers.

 

[mybubbieroo]

There's not a dry eye on Boxerworld tonight! I am sure we all feel your pain. May God be with you and give you the strength to get through these difficult days!

Godspeed Sweet Killian!

 

[Beau's Mommy]

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Run free sweet boy