I never post but I have been visiting boxer world for a few years ever since we brought home our first boxer, Tyson.
I remember seeing my shy little boy the day he came home, with his smushy face and ears and paws that I thought he'd never grow into. I instantly fell in love. Over the past 4 years he grew into the love of my life and he was the best part of my day. Always there to give me a bean hello and a kiss goodnight. Tonight, after one of the worst days, I will go to bed with only my memories of a life cut too short.
It has been 5 hours since my beloved drew his last breath and I do not know how to mourn but to pour out my feelings to those who I know will share my pain.
This morning I loaded up the kennels in the back of the truck and the 2 dogs in the front and we took a car ride. I remember glancing at them as they tried to sniff at the cracked open window and seeing their little nubs wag as they catched the wave of scents. I thought how wonderful it was to have my boxers and that I never realized how I could love a breed so much, or a dog so much. I gave a silent thanks for bringing Tyson into my life.
It was an unusual day and the dogs went to work with me as I was watching a gate for my in-laws and didn't want them at home all day alone. They had peanut butter kongs and sat in their kennels inside the trailer with me while I worked for a few hours. I gave each of them a walk around lunchtime and Tyson slipped out of his collar and into the surrounding foilage. He was doing a burn and didn't heed my screams for him to come back. 5 minutes later, a man came from the highway and asked if I had a dog, because one had just been hit and my heart immediately sank. I ran and tears began streaming down my face.
My dear Tyson lay in the middle of the highway, unmoving. Blood poured from his mouth and he was barely breathing. He died in my arms on the way to the hospital.
I will never forgive myself for the death of my dear one. I can only hope that he didn't feel any pain and that he knew mommy was with him at the end.
I can not express how much joy you brought to my life and I hope I brought as much to yours. I hope you are in a place where you can run freely and happily, forever. I love you so much Tyson. I'm so sorry. You were an angel on earth, they must have called you home.
I remember seeing my shy little boy the day he came home, with his smushy face and ears and paws that I thought he'd never grow into. I instantly fell in love. Over the past 4 years he grew into the love of my life and he was the best part of my day. Always there to give me a bean hello and a kiss goodnight. Tonight, after one of the worst days, I will go to bed with only my memories of a life cut too short.
It has been 5 hours since my beloved drew his last breath and I do not know how to mourn but to pour out my feelings to those who I know will share my pain.
This morning I loaded up the kennels in the back of the truck and the 2 dogs in the front and we took a car ride. I remember glancing at them as they tried to sniff at the cracked open window and seeing their little nubs wag as they catched the wave of scents. I thought how wonderful it was to have my boxers and that I never realized how I could love a breed so much, or a dog so much. I gave a silent thanks for bringing Tyson into my life.
It was an unusual day and the dogs went to work with me as I was watching a gate for my in-laws and didn't want them at home all day alone. They had peanut butter kongs and sat in their kennels inside the trailer with me while I worked for a few hours. I gave each of them a walk around lunchtime and Tyson slipped out of his collar and into the surrounding foilage. He was doing a burn and didn't heed my screams for him to come back. 5 minutes later, a man came from the highway and asked if I had a dog, because one had just been hit and my heart immediately sank. I ran and tears began streaming down my face.
My dear Tyson lay in the middle of the highway, unmoving. Blood poured from his mouth and he was barely breathing. He died in my arms on the way to the hospital.
I will never forgive myself for the death of my dear one. I can only hope that he didn't feel any pain and that he knew mommy was with him at the end.
I can not express how much joy you brought to my life and I hope I brought as much to yours. I hope you are in a place where you can run freely and happily, forever. I love you so much Tyson. I'm so sorry. You were an angel on earth, they must have called you home.
and godspeed!
so many warm hugs to you now group
