Jan, I'm so sorry. Please know that you, Markus and Tara are in my thoughts. Stay strong, Markus knows how much you love him and that you've always done right by him. Even now that you must help him to the bridge, you are putting Markus' needs before your own. I hope that you can find comfort in knowing that this last selfless act of love is what's best for your noble Markus. <Hugs>
~Lisa