So sorry
It is with great sadness I leave this post. After a near-miss with a child while on a walk. After clearly stating please do not approach me or the Dog, he bites announced loudly and someone's 'Bebe's Kid' fascinated and approaching rapidly while i'm pulling an upset and uncontrollable Joe BEHIND me and YELLING at this boy to move away, I realized what a dangerous situation I have on my hands and am 100% unprepared to deal with it. It was only a matter of time before someone got bit and I'd be in big trouble.
Joe and i wen't to our veterinarian last Tuesday and he had his final appointment. I had been in close contact with the veterinarian through getting him back to health and he went home quietly with his favorite bone and squishy, on his bed at the vet's.
Thank you for your advice. I wish there could've been a better solution. I don't think I will be rescueing from a shelter ever again. I will look to a breeder, this has been really, really hard and I am tormented by feelings of frustration, guilt, sadness, loneliness. He's not there to say hello so happily after I've had a horrid day at work, he's not there to say goodnight and goodmorning, to watch TV with, to go for our morning walks. I loved our morning walks, the one time of day the city is actually quiet and there are BUNNIES in the empty lots.
Joe will be missed, he made an impression in my heart and will never be forgotten.