Our Beautiful Boy is gone

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RoxiesEcho

RoxiesEcho

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Happy Birthday Grunt. I hope all the babies who have gone before your made your first birthday in heaven a wonderful one. angelicon
 
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Gruntsmom

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The loving support you all have given me is incredible, and I can't tell you how much it means to me. I've never grieved so openly like this, and I feel all of your empathy and understanding, sharing your own experiences even though it hurts, giving so unselfishly...how can I thank you enough. I truly believe that it's the love and the life we've all shared with our babies that opens us up, softens our hearts, involves us with each other, and yes, even makes us stronger, and helps us heal.

Waking up to each day is still hard, I'm not putting any stress on myself to "get over it" and "move on", as has been suggested by those who have not been as blessed as you and I. I cannot put nearly 5 of the best years of my life out of my head and heart, nor can I forget the most amazing little guy I have ever known, or the most pure love I have ever shared with a sentient being. I do believe that sharp heart-wrenched-out-of-my-body, empty feeling will fade in time, and I'll think of him and laugh and smile more, and the tears will not be so constant and heavy. He took a part of my heart, and left a part of his with me, and I will never, ever forget him.....he changed my life, changed the person I was when that little pink puppy tongue licked my face for the first time, and those big dark shiny Boxer eyes looked into mine. I was a goner, as DH said that day. Always will be.
 
pammyjean

pammyjean

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So very sorry..........

Tear and hugs to you and your family.... I am so sorry I have not been on BoxerWorld over the last few weeks....... my heart goes out to you, I know just how you are feeling........ its just over a year since my sweet Missy Ginty went to Rainbow Bridge,. I still cry when I think about her, I still listen for her woo wooing..... she sure etched a place in my heart... little Saska has helped fill that emptiness... but I miss that girl so very much.

I am sure your beautiful boy Grunt is now running and playing with the other boxer angels.... my Missy Ginty flirting with him... kissing and hugging him and making him feel safe and welcome.

Hugs and prayers to you and your family

Pammyjean and Saska xxxx
 
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Gruntsmom

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boilerupking said:
i can't express how much your posts in this thread have touched me, Grunt's Mom. i have helped 2 of my beloved babies cross the bridge, so reading what you wrote so eloquently simply made my heart break for you. losing my beloved boy 4 years ago was the most heart wrenching experience of my life, and so i know all too well the depth and fulness of your sorrow.
what you wrote brought back lots of memories, some good and some horribly painful. i am still crying as i type this, hours after reading what you wrote, you have touched me too. i don't know if this might help you, but shortly after King passed, i sat down and wrote a letter to him, thanking him for all the joy and sunshine he so selflessly brought into my life. it really was a love letter, enumerating all of the wonderful things which made him mine, and me his. it was quite difficult to write at the time, but i still read it whenever my heart aches for him, and it helps me to remember all of the ways he brought love and laughter into my life. it was kind of like therapy, being able to tell him all the things i might have forgotten to tell him while he was with me, and all of the moments that were only shared between the two of us, as he was my constant companion. writing it all down on paper somehow made it all seem more tangible, and the process was cathartic.
please know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time, and i have the deepest respect and empathy for your broken heart. in the end, you performed the most loving, selfless, and generous act that you could for your beloved Grunt. that kind of love never fades or diminishes. thank you for loving that sweet boy so selflessly. he was incredibly lucky to be so loved by you.
my heart will never be unbroken, but i wouldn't trade the pain i feel for not ever having been loved by my amazing dogs. my hope for you is that sometime soon, you can smile when you remember him, and find comfort in the joyful love he shared with you.
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boilerupking, thank you so much for your post. I know that the expressions of my grief have brought back painful memories for many of you, but also know that you share them to help during this dark empty time. I have shed many tears reading of all of your heartbreak. I also know when you say you wouldn't trade the pain....I would suffer this and more if I could have my baby back, whole and healthy.

I am writing my Grunt a love letter, as you have suggested. This is the most wonderful thing that I could do because I never want to forget. Many times throughout the day, I think of all the things he used to do, what we did together, how he was and how he looked, the funny times, the happy times and the sad times, everything that made up our days together when it was just us, him and me. Memory fades with time, and it was all those little special things that we shared that I miss so much right now. It would be a great loss to let them slip away. I thank you for sharing what you did when your Beloved King passed......thank you for helping me.
 
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Gruntsmom

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pammyjean said:
Tear and hugs to you and your family.... I am so sorry I have not been on BoxerWorld over the last few weeks....... my heart goes out to you, I know just how you are feeling........ its just over a year since my sweet Missy Ginty went to Rainbow Bridge,. I still cry when I think about her, I still listen for her woo wooing..... she sure etched a place in my heart... little Saska has helped fill that emptiness... but I miss that girl so very much.

I am sure your beautiful boy Grunt is now running and playing with the other boxer angels.... my Missy Ginty flirting with him... kissing and hugging him and making him feel safe and welcome.

Hugs and prayers to you and your family

Pammyjean and Saska xxxx
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Thank you, Pammyjean. It really warms my heart thinking about Sweet Ginty taking care of my Dearest Grunt.
 
pammyjean

pammyjean

Boxer Insane
More tears and hugs........

Hi sending you more hugs ....... sorry I just cant stop thinking about sweet Grunt..... RIP my sweet boy........ Each time I come on Boxerworld I see that more of our sweet pups are running about on Rainbow bridge.. One day....we will meet them all again.

Hugs to you

Pammyjean and Saska xxxx
 
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Gruntsmom

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Pammyjean and Ali's mom, I feel your hugs and thank you so very much. It's been 2 weeks and a day since my sweet boy left. I am still floundering through the days, so much has changed. Our routine filled up each day, and I miss seeing his dear face, hearing him sigh that wonderful Boxer sigh, playing catch with him, going for walks, and how he would come up behind me as I was preparing his meal and brush those whiskers against the back of my knee.......how grateful I am that we had all of that, he could always put a smile in my heart.
 
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