Aimee,
I believe with all my heart that what you are doing is without a single doubt the only thing left that you can possibly do for our beloved Mr. B. There has never been anyone in this world that fought and tried harder than you and Jason did to make Baxter's life on this earth the very very best it could be. Trust me when I say that you succeeded...you gave that precious soul the life he never knew and for the years that he was with you guys, he was happy, so very happy...I know...I saw..he was blessed with the best Mom and Dad he could have ever hoped to find. Not many folks would adopt an older blind dog, but you were able to see past his disability and see the love that gentle soul had to offer. Not only will he understand what is happening on Saturday, he will love you even more for showing him this one last act of genuine love and kindness....please know that. Oh, how I wish I could help ease the pain but if it helps any at all, please know that people all over the world will be grieving with you. I pray that you can draw some strength from that thought.
Oh how I wish I could see his nub tail wag when his eyes see again, when he is young and healthy and laughing with GK about their silly birthday party...you know those boys are going to talk about how lame we were for making them wear those silly hats. I am glad that our wonderful guys will be together even if they will be laughing about their silly Moms.
There is so much I could say, but the one thing that comes to my mind right now is how blessed I was to know Mr. B....you know I always said he was our hero. I have never understood how a guy could go through so much in life and still remain one of the most gentle loving souls there ever was. My life is certainly brighter for having known him and I can say with all my heart that I will never ever forget him, or stop loving him.
I will continue to pray for strength for you and Jason. I believe you will find that strength Saturday in Baxter..he will be the one to help you through it and he will leave this world surrounded by those who love him and that is the most wonderful gift any of us could ever ask for. I am sorry, so very very sorry. Love, Aunt Deb, Jack and Jaimee