Cami
Boxer Insane
I was planning on sharing something really brilliant about Cami today. Sadly the words just seem jumbled and not “smart” enough to share with anyone regarding my girl. Today marks the one year anniversary of her death. For some reason I dislike using the word “anniversary” to mark a date for the loss of a loved one. To do so implies in my mind some sort of intended celebration. There is nothing to celebrate about losing a cherished and much loved family member.
The local pet store that I frequent has a birthday club. Cami’s birthday would have been on 3/25. Today of all days I received her annual birthday card in the mail…..on the date of her death.
I woke up to a dreary day today even though the temps are quite warm for an Ohio February. So unlike this same day last year when we had to say goodbye to her. While working earlier today I told myself that if the sun came out today and the brightness was able to be seen that I would take that as a sign that Cami was OK. In the past hour I felt the warmth of the sun on my face. I smiled. A really big smile even though my eyes were welling up with tears.
Cami this is for you…..
I loved you with every square inch of my soul. I still do. The void left without your presence doesn’t have a word to describe it. I miss your incredible spirit and the fact that I knew your complete happiness could be obtained by something as simple as a walk. A year ago I walked without you but with your leash in my hand and my memories of you in my heart. I paused at the bushes you would have stopped at, in front of homes of people you knew and at the large decorative rocks where you would have “read the newspaper” had you been there by my side.
I wrote your name in the snow with sticks every chance I got. When an opportunity presented itself I wrote your name again in concrete so that it would be permanent. I see it every single day and think of you.
I found a star in the sky and deemed it yours. I still seek it out and receive comfort from it.
I share your experiences with others in the hopes that the life you lived, with all of its obstacles and challenges, can be of help to another Boxer. Even though you were a very independent girl I know you know that helping others helps me. Thank you for that but most of all…..THANK YOU for being our dog.
Be well at The Bridge sweet girl.
Mommy and Daddy love you.
The local pet store that I frequent has a birthday club. Cami’s birthday would have been on 3/25. Today of all days I received her annual birthday card in the mail…..on the date of her death.
I woke up to a dreary day today even though the temps are quite warm for an Ohio February. So unlike this same day last year when we had to say goodbye to her. While working earlier today I told myself that if the sun came out today and the brightness was able to be seen that I would take that as a sign that Cami was OK. In the past hour I felt the warmth of the sun on my face. I smiled. A really big smile even though my eyes were welling up with tears.
Cami this is for you…..
I loved you with every square inch of my soul. I still do. The void left without your presence doesn’t have a word to describe it. I miss your incredible spirit and the fact that I knew your complete happiness could be obtained by something as simple as a walk. A year ago I walked without you but with your leash in my hand and my memories of you in my heart. I paused at the bushes you would have stopped at, in front of homes of people you knew and at the large decorative rocks where you would have “read the newspaper” had you been there by my side.
I wrote your name in the snow with sticks every chance I got. When an opportunity presented itself I wrote your name again in concrete so that it would be permanent. I see it every single day and think of you.
I found a star in the sky and deemed it yours. I still seek it out and receive comfort from it.
I share your experiences with others in the hopes that the life you lived, with all of its obstacles and challenges, can be of help to another Boxer. Even though you were a very independent girl I know you know that helping others helps me. Thank you for that but most of all…..THANK YOU for being our dog.
Be well at The Bridge sweet girl.
Mommy and Daddy love you.
