It is just a little while before I take Minxie and drop her off for the surgery. My heart is breaking and I am trying so hard to be strong, but I fear that me seeing her being carried through the door to the surgery room is going to be the last time I see her alive. I know I should not think like that, but Blaze is so fresh in my mind, and that is last time I ever saw him alive and that vision still haunts me. I am just dreading the wait and that phone call. What if her opens her up and finds something that can't be fixed??? OMG. Please help me through this morning.