Lenex forever in our hearts...

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jetnom

Boxer Pal
I know that only time heals a broken heart, but each day seems to be just like the last, filled with grief and and a sense of loss. We swore after we lost Daisy, our first boxer, we would never again put ourselves through moments like these, but anyone that has loved this magnificent breed will attest to how hard it is not to have one in their life.

Lenny, we found you as a rescue nearly two years ago when you were just four. You were a flashy fawn boy that stole our hearts the minute we met. We learned you were given up by your first family on account of issues you had with the dad. He was a very serious landscaper and didn't realize that you were a very serious gardener as well. You would watch him plant flowers in his backyard then later, after being alone outside for hours on end, you would pick out the prettiest flower, pull it out of the ground and place it by the back door as a gift. Your previous mom tried as best she could to train you not to bring those gifts, because it caused your first dad to become very abusive towards you. Well, it didn't work out and you went to rescue where we found you.

You never had a bad day from the very first moment you were in our lives. We know you did your gardening because you weren't being loved and you were being left by yourself in a backyard for hours on end. Since mom and I both have home offices, we had you all the time, 24-7, and you thrived. You quickly retired from gardening and we never had a single problem with you and you became an institution certainly in hour home and around the family. Your demeanor was gentle and very boxer-like in everyway. You were a beautiful 75-lb boy (big boy) with not an ounce of fat on you, a picture of health. The first time our vet met you he said we had won the lottery and that you were a perfect 10!!!

And now you're gone, much too soon and our hearts are broken. I left for an overseas trip and upon landing made my usual safe arrival call. Immediately I sensed something was wrong in mom's voice. She was trying to be strong, but all she could say between sobs was that our beautiful “Lenny was in heaven.” It took a few moments to register and I listened to what happened in total disbelief. You had just finished your dinner and you were standing by Gus’s dish waiting for him to finish (and hopefully leave something behind for you as he often did) when mom said you stumbled slightly. You got to your feet and walked to the next room where you collapsed to the floor. Mom rushed to you and held you in her arms and gently stroked your head and told you how much she loved you. She told me she knew in her heart you were gone and she just wanted to hold you close. Hugging you had become infectious around our home. Between her tears, mom said she could see your best buddy Gus was down on all fours, his head resting on his paws, staring in your direction from the kitchen. This was very unusual for Gus, being the high energy boy he is and always on the go. Gussy instinctively knew what was happening. Mom had John from next door help put you in the car and she said she sang songs to you as she drove you to the vet. Robbie and Lisa rushed over to the EH and comforted mom while the vet took you in to see if there was anything she could do. Sadly there wasn't. In an instant your beautiful heart simply gave out. We were told it was CHF. You never showed any symptoms. You were gone, literally in a matter of a few short seconds. And now we grieve for all that you meant to us. Lenny, Lenex, Lenard, precious pea, sweetest pea, Lenny-b-boy, you have left an indelible and unforgettable mark on all that knew you.

We have your earthly remains in a special place with Daisy. I put our favorite photograph of you on our dresser alongside your collar. It hurts me that I wasn't there to be with you, but you will always have a special place in my heart, always.

You look after Daisy and the both of you run like the wind till we meet again! All my love, Dad
 

Cami

Boxer Insane
What a beautiful tribute to a very special boy.
As I type through my tears I can feel how very much you loved your sweet Lenex.
10 months ago today I too lost a very special Boxer.
I would love to be able to offer you and your family magical words that would help ease your pain but sadly that isn't possible.
Forgive me for being brutally honest but.....life is going to suck for a long time. I don't mean that in a hurtful way. I had so many people telling me that I would feel better in time. Time heals all. Their hearts were in the right place but it was little consolation.
If someone would have been honest with me and said that I would feel terrible for however long I needed to it would have been much easier. Instead I kept trying to put on a brave face and here we are 10 months later and I still cry every single day. I miss her with all of my being. My broken heart will never be healed. It has accepted another Boxer to love but the part that was taken away when my girl left is still gone.
Take care of yourself and your family. Realize that everyone will grieve at their own pace. Some days will be better than others. It's likely that "outsiders" won't be able to understand the pain you are all feeling. That's OK. They have just never experienced a love so pure before.
Know that anything you do to help yourself to make it through each day is OK. Sit in a corner and cry. Hold onto his toys or cry over his pictures. Look for his star in the sky or walk alone with his leash in your hand around his favorite block. No one tells us how to cope only that we should.
He knows that you loved him with your entire heart and soul. And in return you got him.
I wish for you happy memories that you can talk about someday without tears and heartache.... and I wish you peace.
 

DSmitty

Super Boxer
Your tribute to Lenex brought me to tears. What a lucky boy to have had such a wonderful family. I am very sorry for your loss. RIP Lenny-b-boy.
 

Jan

Reasonable Moderator
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I am so sorry for your loss. Lennox sounds like he was a wonderful boxer. He died way too young. Your wonderful memories of Lennox will last forever, but the pain will eventually fade.

Run free at the Rainbow Bridge, Lennox.

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Gruntsmom

Boxer Insane
My deepest sympathy to you on the loss of your Beloved boy, Lenex. I so understand your profound grief, as do many of us here. Rest in peace, Sweet Angel Lenex
 

allysmom

Boxer Buddy
What a beautiful love letter to you precious Lenex. Lenex was a special Boxer and loved you all as much as you loved him. My girl went fast too. I also wasn't there. That was the hardest for me since she gave me so much. I loved her so ,still do. It takes time for the pain to ease, however for me the heartbreak remains. I'm at 3 months and its still hard. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Rest in peace precious Lenex.
 
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