I understand that. It broke my heart to even say it, because of the field of work I'm in. And I really wish there was another way to keep him involved with them without her being an issue. But she is really an issue. She is a manipulative person.
Right now, I have to admit. I'm a little afraid of what she is capable of. She has moved closer to him since she found out about me, found out about us. She has made threats towards me and she was in her younger days a member of a gang (I don't remember which one). Not sure how that all works out, but if you are apart of one of those major gangs...aren't you always one to a certain extent?
Although we are talking and working things out. I'm not sure what I'm going to do, how I'm going to handle things. Do I love him? Yes! Am I sure he loves me? Yes! Can we get back to where we were? Eventually. But, I think he is still too scared to let things progress and possibly getting hurt again. I can understand that.
When he called me on Wednesday he told me he wanted me there with him for the weekend and next week. When I talked with him yesterday, I asked him to make sure that is what he wanted. So I told him to think about it and get back with me. I have made plans for Saturday morning and afternoon, so no biggie. More family is coming into town and I'm going to be busy. This (I hope) will give him the time he needs to sort things out.
Thanks for listening to me everyone. I appreciate every word you write. It helps.
