I am so sorry you have had to go through this--what an ordeal. I know it was an awful decision to make, but what is the most important is making sure your daughter and yourself are in a safe, healthy environment away from your abusive, alcoholic partner. It is also probably better for Maci to be out of that situation, it is just too bad she couldn't stay with you, I know. I am sure the rescue will find her a good home, try not to be too hard on yourself. Concentrate on taking care of you and your daughter for now--I wish you the very best!