I am so sorry about Coach and you obviously loved him a great deal. I remember when I picked up Monty's ashes from the vet I couldn't speak - in fact I couldn't speak for days and days without dissolving into a puddle of tears as Monty's passing was so sudden. when I went to the vet to pick up his ashes I again couldn't speak and they all gave me a hug and handed me his ashes with a plaque on it in a rimu box (native wood to NZ) - really lovely. Like you I still miss Monty and he sits on the sideboard with my favourite photo of him and his collar. I still miss him so much, and I probably won't ever get over it, but I will have to learn to live with it. My thoughts are with you.