Still pain, still sorrow and still missing my Magic

[Julie P.]

Today I drove by the vet’s office where Magic first caught the infection that took her life from me and I have not stopped crying since. I am begging for relieve from my sorrow tonight and I am doing what I have done so many times this past year, I am turning to my BW pals. I feel as though I let my girl down. Maybe I should have waited longer before I helped her to the bridge. I've wished a million times that I would have had the insight to have given her some kind of a "map" so that her spirit could find its way back to me...I know this is silly but some how I thought she would visit me like I've heard others talk about...but she doesn’t. Tonight because of the pain in my heart, I decided it was time to share the pictures of Magic and I together two weeks before I helped her to the bridge. "Magic, my girl, if you can see my tears, please know that I still love you as much as I did from the first moment that I saw you."
http://www.piczo.com/magicandjulie?g=9007585&cr=1&rfm=y

 

[Tango's Mama]

Julie, Thank you for sharing the pictures. Im crying with you! I sent you mail *HUGS*

 

[hanley]

Julie, Thank you for sharing your pictures & feelings, I understand your pain. Sending you hugs & prayers! Hanley

 

[Mama_Zookeeper]

I wish I did not know the pain you speak of, but I do. Losing a family member is hard, be strong and remember that Magic would want nothing but happiness in your life. You will be together again.

Dora

 

[daniels1989]

Magic love

My heart aches for you and I shed tears as I look at your beautiful pictures. I too know your pain and wish you the best. I know Magic was loved and I know Magic knew your love. I figure if God can let a snake in the Garden of Eden, there must be a million plus Boxers in heaven, many with angel wings.

 

[Slobber Baby]

You must know that you did what you think is right for her...they depend on us to help them and you did...I believe Magic visits you...stay strong..maybe one day you will be able to get another baby, one that Magic will send to you...many hugs to help you stay strong...godspeed Magic you are missed by many!


Laura

 

[StormKatz]

I am so truly sorry for your loss & heartache. As hard as I'm sure it is don't blame yourself... it wasn't your fault, Heaven just needed another angel. Your girl is always with you, even if you don't see it, she's there, I just know it.

Run free sweet Magic.

 

[KonaKoffe]

Maybe I should have waited longer before I helped her to the bridge. I've wished a million times that I would have had the insight to have given her some kind of a "map" so that her spirit could find its way back to me...I know this is silly but some how I thought she would visit me like I've heard others talk about...but she doesn’t. [/url]

Never ever second guess your decision. You did what you felt was right to end her earthly burdens. She is still there as your angel baby now.

Of course she visits you. Every time you think about her she is visiting you. Everytime the sun shines she is visiting you to light your way.

 

[crowpete]

I had a feeling that I should not open this thread.....I knew I would be crying at work but that is ok, its ok to cry! My heart goes out to you. I have lost many animals in my life and I truly believe Darby will be the hardest yet! Please know that your baby is by your side. She is in your heart. She helps you get up in the morning and go to bed at night. She helps you to love again. You may not see her but she is there.....ALWAYS!

Many hugs to you. The pictures and writings on Magics page are wonderful. Thank you for sharing.

 

[Elyse]

Julie, I am so sorry! Losing one of my babies is my greatest fear in life. Although I have not been through the pain you are suffering, I understand the love you feel for Magic. It is clear that she will be a part of you forever. She is a part of who you are. Your tribute page to her is absolutely beautiful. (((hugs)))