I am so so sorry to hear of your loss of Kruz. I know that our Peanut, who we had to let go on 2-15-05 (she was 6) is playing with him at Rainbow Bridge. I know how hard it is and knwo how very much they are family members. the pain is raw and overwhelming and (for me at least) literally feels physical at times. I know time will heal us, although sayingthat certainly doesnt help us feel any better now in the present moment. hang in there and know you are not alone in your grief and pain. Our little friends are free of pain now, and will play together joyfully until we see them again....take good care of yourself right now and through this very difficult time.