She is my life

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My Lucy

Boxer Pal
Lucy, my wonderful 8 year old girl is not gone yet, but here is our story. To make a long one short she had been sick/throwing up and not acting her bubbly self for about 2 or 3 weeks and her vet didn't suspect anything because her signs were so vague and other than that she was perfectly well. Well after her quick and steady decline downwards, losing about 10 pounds in less than 2 weeks, he knew we really needed to dig deeper. Through x-ray he found a lump in her stomach and her intestines in her chest cavity, sent us off to get an ultrasound from one of the best technicians in the state and once they reviewed the results we got the news. A large mass in her stomach, the lining being 3-4 times thicker than it should have been and two wonderful veterinarians 99% sure it was cancer. Our wonderful vet was honest and straight up about her prognosis being grim as she could no longer keep down any food and the mass was growing quickly still. He sent us straight to Colorado State University, who have the top animal caner unit in the entire world and they reaffirmed absolute faith in what the previous two vets had said. Lucy's doctor said that chemo or surgery would be expensive, painful and would help only a very small amount, if all. Best case if we did all the treatments and they worked perfectly and we spent around $7,000 dollars for it, we could only expect 30 days to 6 months depending on the cancer. She said this was not likely. The exploratory procedure they would do to find which kind of cancer she has would most likely not succeed because of how low the tumor is in her stomach. We decided against cutting her open and putting her through all of that trauma and we brought her home with some anti-vomit medicine and anti-inflammatory pills and we are currently hoping for the best.

Basically all Doctors involved believe it is just a matter of days until we are faced with the decision of euthanization.

This girl is my everything. I am home with her all day everyday and have been so for over a year now. My father died a year ago and right about this time is when Lucy came into my life via my boyfriend who adopted her as a puppy. In many ways she helped fill a gaping hole that was left by my fathers death, but it was so much more than that. Not only did she help to fill that hole, she made it overflow with joy and love and life. She has left a hefty trail of fans everywhere she has ever gone and she is truly the most wonderful animal I have ever known, met or loved. And growing up on a working horse ranch, I loved many! My boyfriend and my family joke that all my maternal instincts will be used up on her before I even have kids.

Most importantly her life has been so full of love, both given and received, that to let her go is just slightly eased by the knowledge that she never once wanted for love and kindness. I guess this post is a sort of memorial of some kind. Boxer World has always offered such great support, and I thought if anyone would understand what we are going through it is the people here.

I am at a loss for what to do, or say, and all I know how to do right now is hold her and clean her and show her with my actions that every little thing is going to be alright. In the end, I know that it will be too. She is such a beautiful, sweet, pure thing on this Earth that there is no doubt in my mind that there will be no fear, or pain in the end for her. My only wish is that I could somehow give back to her everything she has given me.
 

tasham

Boxer Booster
I am so, so sorry for what you are going through. I have been going through something similar right now as well. I just had to put down my angel boy of 12-1/2 years just 2 long days ago. We found out about 3 weeks ago that he had tumors on his heart. Just Monday, it was confirmed that the tumors were growing, causing all sorts of issues with his heart, and most likely had spread to other parts of his body. He has been so weak, he's barely been able to stand. Wednesday, we made the most difficult decision of our lives to let our sweet boy go before the pain overtook him.

I completely understand your gutwrenching grief and sorrow. I have been going through this for the last 3 weeks, but particularly this week as we knew he had just days left. The 2 days since he's been gone have been very hard. I pray for comfort for you and your sweet Lucy. I have 2 other boxers and I have been hugging and loving them so much the past few days. They are my life as well, and I understand how you feel about your beautiful girl. I wish I had something perfect to say to ease the pain, but I don't. Just know those of us who have gone through and are going through what you are deeply sympathize with you. May God comfort you both in this very difficult time.
 

Roge

Boxer Insane
Oh boy I am also at a loss as to what to say ,I am so so sorry that you and Lucy are going through this There is one thing you must remember and that is you have most definatly given back all she has given you, this works 50/50 and this lovely testimonial you have writen proves that ,it is very touching, you will both be in our thoughs and prayers .God be with you lucy and your family at this tough time.
 

SevillaBrian

Boxer Booster
My heart goes out to you and your lovely, poor girl. Our dear, dear Polly, a Jack Russell, died in my arms nearly two months ago after being with us for almost 17 years. It was an unbearable loss. We thought we would never have another dog until we found our Lulu on the street, almost dead and we took her in. We believe she is Polly's gift to us of another dear friend. Lulu and Polly are so much alike in temperament if not in size.

Be strong for your girl. She needs your strength and love so much now.

With my love to you both.
 

My Lucy

Boxer Pal
Thank you oh so much

To Tasham: It is endlessly comforting to know how not alone we are in this process. Your sweet Baxter was so brave, and he knows how you loved him and most importantly he knows how brave you were to let him go. I can't imagine what pain it must have caused to see such a brave, strong soul suffer from such weakness and pain, and yet you pulled through for him when it mattered the most and when he needed your help. You set him free. I do believe he not only knows this but thanks you for your steadfast love of him until the very end. Charlie and Cyrus are there now to pick you back up and make you smile through this time. Thank you so much for sharing your words of kindness with me.

To Roge: I don't know if you know how wonderful it made me feel, despite all of this, to read your response. Thank you so much, for your thoughts and prayers and for your beautiful insight... it has truly made our day better.

To Brian: Sweet Polly and Lulu! I do not see any pictures of your wonderful Polly, but Lulu is a truly beautiful girl. After 17 years of utter devotion Polly passed the baton to Lulu. I can't imagine how sad and peaceful at the same time it must have been to have her go in your arms where she belongs. The love shared between you and Lulu is no doubt a part of that love you shared with Polly. Polly had a plan for your family and Lulu. What a wonderful story. Thank you so much Brian.
 

Cami

Boxer Insane
It is beyond comprehension having to face the complete sorrow we experience when our babies will have to soon leave us as disease takes over their bodies.
I've loved animals who were here one minute and gone the next with no warning that their time was coming to an end. I've been affected as well by knowing what was soon to come.... yet praying for a different outcome with others who I had to prepare myself for that final goodbye.
Both are beyond shocking and identical in sadness.
If there is ever one saving grace in knowing what is to come it is the presence of mind we have in being able to focus all of our energies on loving them to the fullest for however long we are allowed to have them.
My heart breaks for so many who have lost their babies recently, others who have received a dreadful diagnosis and the rest who know that their hearts will soon be broken.
I wish you and Lucy peace.
 

elgerdes

Completely Boxer Crazy
I don't have any anecdote to help, because I really don't know what to say. One of my personal worst fears is to watch my loved ones, furry included, be in pain. I'd rather myself feel that , or pass on. Sometimes it is out of our hands. But I hope you know Lucy is in good hands, and will continue to be no matter what path she takes.

Sending warm hugs, and Zoe sends lots of boxer kisses your way :)
 

mileswilson

Boxer Booster
Sad face and crying for you. My miles is sick and I am thinking they are going to say cancer as well.I was sitting here crying and what do I do.. come here and read stories that help me get through. I hope your baby is ok and the great thing is that you are with your baby and she knows it. I just hurt for you. Just know people here care about our pets and no matter what you do you will get the support here. Please keep us posted. Praying for you and your family. So sorry.
 

ELubas

Boxer Insane
I am so sorry for the loss you are facing. It is an unbearable heartache when the time comes for them to go-sudden or with knowledge the pain is awful. I too brought my Frazier home after the loss of my father and I always thought maybe my Dad sent him to me. I adored Fraze and he me and when he died I was inconsolable. But in the end the gifts they give us outweigh the loss and I for one would not trade a second with any of my crewlovicon I wish you and Lucy peace on your journey and please know there are many of us here thinking of you and feeling your grief. God bless your sweet girl
 

mileswilson

Boxer Booster
I understand how you feel. Just give her the best of the best times ten now. I am going through the same thing in a sense. My boy who is 9 got diagnosed with lung cancer today. Its so hard. I came on here for the same reason you did. Everyone hear cares becasue they love there dogs like family. My heart is hurting for you.. Just know she knows you are a great mamma and you make her feel safe and help her when she is sick. Keep us posted. I am praying for no pain and and great vibes. My Miles has been through so many miltary moves and two deployments. I depend on him and love him so I know how you feel. It hurst so bad. Hugs from Texas
 
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