Throughout each day, I have been reading each and every one of your replies. Each one of you touched my heart in it's own special way. You have made a difference.
Today, for the first time in a few days, I was able to wake up and feel a tiny bit of sunshine in my heart. I was able to go outside and feel the warmth and the brightness and not hurt. It will just take time.
Samson was a very special boy. He was beautiful, absolutely gorgeous. Due to the pain I was feeling when I saw his picture, I was going to remove his picture from my avatar but my husband said, "No, honor him, and keep him there." I will do that. But being beautiful was not what Shammy Sham was about. Being a big lug, silly, clumsy, a clown with a wet squishy mouth was his style. Being the boy that mommy loved, spoiled as he was was, is what he was all about. The final moments of each day were spent with Samson laying on my feet, like a big soft comfortable heavy warm blanket.
In all of my pain I was not sure if I could be a Boxerworld member ever again. But now I can say that the feeling is passing and I am glad that I had a "Boxerworld Family" to turn to.
Thank you everyone!!!