Thank You!!!
I am soo sorry it took me this long to respond to all of your e:mails. I was totally overwhelmed by the number of responses, and all of the kind words. I could only read a few at a time - the tears just wouldn't stop flowing! I just had to stop reading them - and stop thinking about the whole thing so much. I just went through and re-read them all again - still a bit teary eyed. Such nice people out there - who totally understand.
It is now Spring, and my baby will soon be three. I just recently took him back to the plastic surgeon, and his scars look really good. It is nice to have the peace of mind that he will truly be okay. It is really strange - I have been seeing Boxers everywhere!! I don't know if I just notice them more - or it is just a sign. Spring reminds me of my dog - how he loved being out in the yard with the kids, how he loved his walks. I just thought getting over him would be easier. But it hasn't been easy! God - I just miss him. He was my dog, my baby, my friend.
I think part of it has to do with putting him to sleep. I know we made the right decision...but I just wish I could have been there with him during his last moments. That is a terrible regret I have - the not knowing what happened, or what he was going through during his last minutes. He was taken to the humane society...but a neighbor said it wasn't pretty. He was a big boxer - 85lbs. of muscle. They had to mace him in order to get him in the truck. Soo sad....but I never saw him....only my husband did. And as he said...at that particular time...he wasn't our dog. Didn't look like our dog...wasn't acting like our dog.
The good memories are starting to replace the bad memories. I just miss him, and I am longing to wrap my arms around a boxer for a nice big hug. Anyone in the Pittsburgh area? Would sure love to hang out with you and your boxer for awhile???