Thank you everyone. It has been one month today and it seems to have really hit me in the last few days. At the time I had so much going on, I didn't have time to deal with it. Halloween was very hard. Thor loved kids and they always seemed to love him right back, even though he was twice as big as many of them. I have been crying off and on since. Also since Thor was on such a strict medication schedule that had to work around food, I had to feed and/or medicate him on average every 4 hours. I often look at the clock and see the time and at first start to panic that I missed something, though I am getting better about that. I miss him everyday.