Thank you all so much for your support and kind, heartfelt words. It is so helpful to be able to communicate with such animal lovers (specifically boxers) who know exactly how difficult this is, and who have gone and are going through the same thing. I have grown up with them, and all of the generations before peanut that she was a direct decendent of.
This morning was the one week mark since we let go of Peanut, and I did not want to be in the house when the clock was ticking, taking me back in my mind to "one week ago at this moment....." Its so hard not to think those things but they are so painful too. I took our golden on a hike this morning, one that I have not gone up since we started to realize peanuts heart could not handle it. How she wanted to go, but we knew her heart was getting worse. So I decided today to go up after taking our son to school/daycare. It felt good and was sad too. I thought the whole way about Peanut and boxers in general. They have so much love, they are so playful, so happy, and go until they cant go anymore. They are so gentle, and people who dont know the breed tend to think they are mean bc. of their look, when in fact peanut would have kissed them to death. ;-) We shoudl get her ashes sometime in the next week which will be the next "difficult marker" since her passing, and aside from burying some in our yard/garden with a memorial stone, we also plan to spread some over aspen mt. As recently as this summer we hiked up that mountain together (although i did not take her as much as we used to). She loved it, and if you hike up with your dogs you can take the gondola down for free. it was always a great site to see me and my two silly (dirty after a hike) big dogs climbing into and sitting in the little gondola cars (as if I were there with two other people) for the ride down. My husband owns and operates a paragliding school here, and this spring after ski season is over and snow melts, we think that we will take a tandem flight over the mt. together and let SOME of her ashes go from the sky......By then maybe it will feel more like a celebration of her life rather than the tragic, premature, unfair loss of one of our best friends and family members. I did light candles last night, one for peanut and several more to honor all those babies of other boxerworld members/lovers.
thank you all and to those who are also grieving, we do so together and i keep you in my heart.
