I just came across this thread and am so terribly sorry to hear about your Dad's recent passing. I had a distant relationship with both my parents when they both died within a relatively short time not too long ago, so I can truly empathize with what you are going through. I also kept a journal afterwards which helped me sort through all of my emotions. Glad that your step mother called, and that you and your brother will be able to have a private memorial to your father. Heartfelt condolences to you and your family ~ Cathy