My "first born" as we called her left us on Friday 7/14 almost 5 months to the day we were told Brandy had hemangiosarcoma. She was given 6-8 weeks to live and despite what they said she fought the battle and was with us for so much longer that we originally had thought. We had so much fun with her, treated everyday as if it were her last and she continued to do great. She acted as though there was nothing wrong as the doctors said would happen and to us she was our healthy, happy baby girl.. I think I put out of my mind that she was sick and we enjoyed everyday. On Friday morning she was so happy and wanted to go for a ride when I had to drop my 6 y/o off for camp. She jumped right in my car as she always did and sat right next to the window. The kids always gave her the window seat. We dropped my son off and she was completely fine and happy and while driving down the street (camp is 5 min away) my 3y/o told me she was throwing up.. That didnt phase me as Brandy sometimes had a weak stomach. When we got home I went to get her out of the car, she wouldnt move, had a blank stare and her gums were white and cold. I knew in my heart this was it but, did not want to face it. We took her to the vet and he said she was bleeding internally and it was time to let her go. It was such a hard day and I feel so empty inside. My kids are having such a hard time especially my 6 y/o as he was only at camp for 3 hours and when he left life was so normal.. My house is so empty and lonely. We are all walking around like zombies.. She touched so many lives and changed non dog lovers into dog lovers. She was the sweetest and she was only 7 years old.. Cheated out of live.. My son is in the angry stage right now and told us if he keeps busy and doesnt think of her he doesnt get sad.. He unfortunaley has been brushed with death too much for his young age.. He lots his grampy in a tragic accident 2 1/2 years ago and then his 7 year old cousin to cancer 1 year ago.. The only comfort he has right now is that they are all together. He said "well at least grampy and Emily get to hang out with Brandy again.. I am sure they missed her" I just dont know how to help him understand.. and not to be afraid of death. When my niece died we got him a kitten for comfort and knowing he would be around for a long time. Not thinking we would be brushed with death again. I just wish I could erase his sad face but, I feel the same..
I know in time it will get easier... This has been a great site for me as I joined only when Brandy got sick.. I didnt post a lot but, just reading through some of the threads has helped.. Brandys Mom.
I know in time it will get easier... This has been a great site for me as I joined only when Brandy got sick.. I didnt post a lot but, just reading through some of the threads has helped.. Brandys Mom.
