My 7 Yrs old has cancer

[Rocky's-Mom]

Thanks Donna

I cannot go back to the poems for a long time...just too sad. You are so sweet...it makes me feel better just seeing your name. I went home for lunch to check on the dogs and you must understand that my dogs normally eat Science Diet but with the situation I have let them eat everything that want upset their tummies...anyways I had made them beef and rice..I came back to work and told a co worker that if I continued to let them eat the foods they liked that they were going to kill each other trying to get to the food. I think Rocky has gained weight and I have to lift him in and out of bed because of his leg. He weighed 75 lbs at the vet last week.

Donna keep me straight...I appreciate you telling me not to read the poems...well I am going home and Rocky and I are watching the Arkansas Razorback play Alabama...Oh yes Rocky has a hog hat and hog nose ....

Thanks for being so sweet....Rocky's Mom

 

[Donna1969]

:: careful feeding the other pup way too much. HE will end up huge and you'll have a big ol' fatty. Now of course, Rocky, well that baby let him eat whatever he wants.

I am glad my posts "set you straight" but I hope I don't sound harsh. I just know that reading those poems would just set me right over the edge. So, its best for now, to stay away. Oh, I wish something I could say or do would help you with this grief. But, I know nothing ANYONE says or does will help. Just know that there are plenty of people here who know and understand what you are feeling. We are here for you for anything you need.

wishing you a great night..please give Mr Rocky a big ol hug for me (I miss hugging a boxer baby..the cats just can't seem to tolerate the big squeeze I am use to giving Blizz. ) Give him a kiss on his nose for me and tell him that I said to stay healthy for as long as he can and to give Momma extra lovin because she really needs it.

 

[atlasmom911]

I am so sorry that you and your baby are going through this terrible ordeal. I lost my Abby almost 5 yrs ago and it still hurts. You and your baby Rocky are in my prayers. The hardest thing I ever had to do was to help my girl to the Rainbow Bridge. I remember her looking at me with those beautiful brown eyes and I knew it was time for her to go. To me it was just like losing one of my children.

 

[Gin&Dex]

Hey Vicky!

Donna and I must be on the same page in our "healing" process, because she says the same things I want to say (she just beats me to it) I must admit, I admire Donna a LOT because she is doing so much better than me! And I have to say I'm only vaguely familiar with Donna and Blizzy's story, because I just couldn't bear to read it (only bits and pieces). But like I said earlier, people deal with things in their own time and at their own pace, and that's ok!

For a while I only read my own posts, or went to the Boxer Ring or Chit Chat to read posts. I couldn't read or reply to anything else! And yes, those poems still rip my heart out. I made the mistake of reading one today at work (thinking about you) and ended up teary eyed. So just like Donna said, be careful what you read. There will come a time when you will be able to read them, and there will come a time when you are able to help people too.

And also to echo Donna's words (again, for the ump-teenth time) , be careful not to let Rocky and Tobey gain too much weight! The extra weight for Rocky might put more of a strain on him. I think he's fine at 75 lbs (my Dexter is 72 lbs), but try not to let it get too far. I say that because I hope you have MONTHS more together, and the weight might be hard for him. (Keep the cheeseburgers coming, just maybe cut them in half, and have them with a little bit of dog food!)

And also, I don't mean to be harsh or insensitive either, please forgive me if I have been or am!

Enjoy the game tonight, and give Rocky a big ole kiss from us! Go Razorbacks!!!! Where in Arkansas are you?? I really feel like you are my neighbor, since I'm just across the border in Louisiana!

Vicky, you and Rocky and Tobey have our love and well wishes!! Sincerely!

 

[Donna1969]

Hey Vicky!

I must admit, I admire Donna a LOT because she is doing so much better than me! And I have to say I'm only vaguely familiar with Donna and Blizzy's story, because I just couldn't bear to read it (only bits and pieces).

Thanks for that compliment! Geesh, to be honest, if you only knew. Its very easy to be happy and cheerful when typing words..no one can see me. I am doing a lot better than most people thought. Better than i thought I would be. I think I did 90% of my grieving the first 2 wks after the diagnosis. After that, I realized I was wasting precious time making it all about me and my sadness instead of making it about Blizzy and making her remaining time with me the best it could be.

Don't for one second think for one second that I am "ok". I am dealing with it. I made the HUGE mistake of clicking on the Rainbow Bridge that was in "movie" form last night. I was a wreck and all that rawness came back. I find myself talking to my girl. I pat the box that her ashes are in, I smell her collar (ok maybe thats a bit freaky or weird but its comforting to me), I sit on her bed and rememise, I open the box that her baby teeth are in and think back all those years ago when she was a mere pup. I feel/sense her around me. Maybe thats why I am doing a lot better than expected. Maybe since I don't she's "totally" gone I can go on. I also distract myself and it seems to work.

Ok..so enough of my longwinded blabbing. This is about Rocky and his momma. So, Rockys mom...know that I think of you daily, know that you and Rocky are in my prayers and know that I have a shoulder for you to lean on should you need it.

 

[Rocky's-Mom]

Thanks Melanie

I don't take anything the wrong way...I know eveyone mean only the best for us and I did start thinking about that extra weight being on his leg I guess I am just afraid he want eat. the vet said he will start to not eating and sleeping more so I am going in the wrong direction. I can't prevent what is going to happen so I guess I have to accept it and take one day at a time. I gave Rocky a big hug and and kiss for you and he returned it with a big sloppy wet kiss just for you. Is there anything like the love of a boxer??? Absolutely not....people think they have a dogs love have never owned a most human dog the boxer. Ok no poems...only positive vibes and once again you are the brave one...knowing what footsteps I am following. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers because I know you need them as much as me. Well the game starts in afew minutes so we're off to call the pigs...I am in the north central part of Arkansas....between Bull Shoals and Lake Norfork....in the Ozarks but you are still my neigbor...sweet dreams....Rocky and Mom

 

[RonaldMM]

Sending prayers and healing vibes to you and your baby

 

[Rocky's-Mom]

For Donna

The movie is what got me totally hesterical last night....that was enough to upset me if my baby was fine and I know how it makes you feel but we will all be better people because we have loved a boxer. Rocky doesn't even like toys and he have a fight with a stuffed green frog as I type. Gee they are such a mess!! I will not live without a boxer in my life .... not sure when but there will be another one...NEVER take the place of my Rocky but as someone said make new memories. I had told my husband last year that I just couldn't live without a boxer if something ever happened to Rocky and he said I could never replace Rocky and I said we wouldn't want to even try. Of all the breeds of dogs I have owned the boxer is the only one that totally captures your heart. My husband is taking it very hard. We're both crazy but Donna I love people that love their animals. I think you are responding in the same way I will...I will be you and Melanie both combined...so you girls don't give up...we'll all make it and be stronger because of it...Rocky & Vicky

Sweet dreams Donna

 

[furrykidmom]

I smell her collar (ok maybe thats a bit freaky or weird but its comforting to me), I sit on her bed and rememise, I open the box that her baby teeth are in and think back all those years ago when she was a mere pup. I feel/sense her around me.

Hope I did this quote thing correctly.

Donna 1969
I did the same thing. I am forty years old and for the first week and a half I slept with his favorite stuffed pig. I would fall asleep hugging it and crying. I was so embarrassed that I waited for my husband to fall asleep before I would pick it up. I knew that he would understand but I did not want to upset him more and I needed to grieve alone. Tig was the one that I grieved with when my father died. I wanted my dog, not my husband. I love my husband and he is sweet and supportive but I loved the silent warm snuggle of my Boxer who licked away my tears and cuddled close all night. Now I had lost him and had no one to hold. I longed for my boy which made me cry even harder.

Tomorrow it will be one year to the day that we lost our boy. It has gotten easier but I never forget. The day that I read Rocky's thread and posted I balled my eyes out again. My husband called me to the kitchen and I tried to compose myself. He could tell that I had been crying. When he asked me if I was okay I lost it and started crying again. I told him "I miss Tig" he held me while I cried and then brought me my baby.

He chose our second Boxer. She is a rescue and the first thing that he noticed when he went to get her is that she loves to snuggle. He hopes that she will fill that missing gap. Our other Boxer puppy is not a snuggler.

I also have an 8 X 10 that sits next to my desk with his collar. My husband wanted to put his collar on our nine month old. I just have this thing about not passing down collars. It is also my one memory and scent of my baby.

Donna1969, you are not alone,

Furrykidmom

 

[Gin&Dex]

To Donna,

Yes, this is about Vicky and Rocky... but it's about all of us too... our stories and experiences. No, believe me, I'm not saying you are perfectly "over" Blizzy or have forgotten her (we never forget). I don't mean that.... because I think we are going through the same things. I am finally able to look at Ginger's pictures and LAUGH and smile and REMEMBER WHEN....! And it is a great feeling! I have my moments too... where I just break down. But I'm glad you consider my comment a compliment, because it truly was. You and Blizzy made a deal (to hold on till christmas) like Ginger and I did (to fight as long as we could)... and deals are deals, right? Keeping those deals is what I admire! It just took me longer to come to grips with things. She was my first pup! I still cling to her collar too (you're not weird!!)!

I still hear her at night... I hear her breathing and moving (and I love it)... when she finally wasn't able to get in my bed at night, she had her bed next to mine. I still "watch my steps" when I get out of bed, careful not to step on her! I think it's kinda neat how they never truly leave us. I don't think they do ever really leave.... they are always with us.

My heart aches for all of us that have lost, and I am now among this special group. (Donna, don't squeeze those kitties too tightly! ) And we ARE special, for having the love of a Boxer to remember.

I will always have a Boxer in my life... I may take some time in between, but I cannot live without these guys! They are the best!!

Donna, I know how you feel... Vicky, hang in there and remember ALL of Rocky's life--and keep on living it!! We're fighting for you!!