Lymph Node Cancer

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alyssabriana

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Update

After not being able for some reason to access the boxerworld forum, this is the first time I am able to post, so thanks for all of the responses but I didn't get to read ANY until now >:(

We took her to the vet on Friday, and she wasn't THAT swollen. For financial reasons it was difficult for my parents to justify taking her to the E-vet.

She stopped eating saturday, like I said. I fed her water from a bottle because that was the only way she would take it. I looked inside of her mouth and the lump was so completely swollen it was devastating and heart breaking. I felt it on the outside, but I didn't think that it was that bad. I admit I was afraid to look right away because I was just afraid, I didn't want to hurt her and I didn't want to freak out since I knew there wasn't much I could do about it that instance.

Believe me, if I had the money to take her to the emergency vet and pay for them to give her whatever they needed I would, but I just don't. That's the harsh reality.

Sunday she wasn't any better and the lump in her throat was a lot bigger and she was having troubles breathing. I was so heartbroken but I couldn't stand to see her like that any longer. I knew that even if we did take her to the vet to get a second opinion, by the time they got back to us on treatment options and we were able to choose one and then set up an appointment to get treatment, I knew that she just wouldn't make it that long.

Yeah, they could have fed her at the vet and tried to get calories in her, but I seriously was so afraid that she was going to suffocate to death because it just got so bad so quickly, it was unreal I couldn't believe it. I thought I would have to look kind of far back in her throat to see anything because of where the lump was placed in her neck, but no, I opened her mouth and it was huge and right there. It was so scary and I felt terrible that it got so bad within a day.

She stopped eating, and playing, and just wasn't the same. She wagged her tail rarely and slowly.

As much as I wanted to help her, I didn't want to have her suffer any longer, and I couldn't stand the thought of her being scared and freaking out if she were to suffocate because the mass in her throat got too big.

Last night was the last time I got to have roxy next to me curled up on my pillows snoring. I just petted her and cried, and told her about Heaven and Jesus, and where she would be the next day, and I told her I loved her. Yes I do believe in Jesus Christ as my savior and the Son of God and I believe he takes our dogs to Heaven. This morning Roxy was put to sleep. Today is a hard day, I couldn't go when it happened, I didn't want to wake up this morning either, I just wanted to stay in bed wishing that it never happened. I wish I could have helped her more, I wish there was another option for her, but I honestly don't think there was. It's progression was scary fast, and Roxy couldn't wait any longer, and I couldn't make her wait either. But now I know at least Roxy is somewhere where she can have way more than I could ever give her, and I am comforted in knowing that I will be able to see her again someday.

RIP Roxy 4/2003-7/2011
 

chrystel

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Oh I am so sorry for your loss of Roxy :( This stupid cancer is so fast and devastating..
All my heart goes out to you..

RIP Roxy angelicon
 

SnowDove

Super Boxer
I had to make that decision with my rottweiler in early May... Lung cancer. We knew that day because of the way she looked at us, pleading.... It still breaks our hearts. My mom burst out sobbing yesterday in the middle of eating ice cream, because Jade would have been sitting there and slobbering hopefully.

Cancer sucks... but our babies have found peace, and their bodies are no longer being ravaged by disease and pain.

Very sorry for your loss,
 

Independence

Boxer Insane
It is never an easy decision and cancer in the lymph nodes progresses so fast. I kow that she is no longer suffering and that you did the right thing for her. I hope the good memories will be a comfort to you and your family.
 
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