Oh Michelle,
I know that words are of little comfort right now - I am crying with you when I read your sorrow and pain, I was there too. I know it's so hard, and I hope you know that you are not alone when it comes to feeling like this, although no one can truly take it away, we are here to listen and comfort. She will always be with you and waiting for you on the other side, I truly believe that. Right now it's raw and it hurts, but in time, it will get a little easier. Remember all the good times, look at pictures, make a frame, order something special in memory with her picture on it, grasp the good memories and hold them tight near your heart. There will be comfort there. She will be right there with you.
Much love and peace.