Thank you all. Shakira's Ma, I remember your Mom passing but right now I can't bring myself to read the tribute. I'm sure it's beautiful. I watched my Dad and Grandma die slow agonizing deaths, and am grateful my Mom didn't have to endure that. I'm just looking for answers I'll probably never get. I just wanna know why God would do this to me and my kids. Yesterday was so bad I wanted to put my head thru the wall. When the kids come home I try really hard to keep it together because they are hurting too. Robbie doesn't want to go to school he's afraid I'm going to die like his Gramma. Katie just whines and whines for her Meemee. I think I'm angrier for my kids sake than my own. I'm seeing a grief counselor today at 11, then Robbie will go since he was with me when I found her. I think he was closer to his Gramma then he is to me, they had such a special bond. Please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers, we really need it. Everyday my Mom would come over and ask me what's new on Boxerworld. I guess she can see for herself now.