I just don't know how...

[sweetboxer]

I know how hard this is. I lost Cadence 4 months ago and I cry a lot for her. Her birthday is Sunday and I know I will cry, since I've been crying all week. It's okay to cry--it's part of the grieving process. It's just such a difficult thing to go through. In time your memories will help you smile again. I still see pictures of Cadence and some days, I completely lose it. Other days, I laugh at her little scrunched up face. It all depends on my mood. But Ella is safe and happy, and I'm sure that she misses you as much as you miss her. I got Colby about a week or so after I lost Cadence b/c I couldn't take the quiet. Skye is very quiet and she stayed right by my side, but I still needed another set of paws around the house. I thank God for Skye and Colby b/c they have given me so much joy and peace while grieving for Cadence. They lick my tears away and cuddle in my lap while I cry, and then do something funny to make me laugh. Maybe another Boxer is what you need...to help you find peace and happiness again.
Colby, Skye, and I send you lots of (((((((((hugs))))))))))) and they especially send you lots of happy wiggles.

 

[Julie P.]

... I can't fix her... I don't know how to accept the fact that I couldn't fix her.

The words written in your thread rang true in my own heart for my girl, Magic, whom I lost last September. I can especially relate to the not being able to the "I can't fix her" feeling. I have never hated anything so much as the gap between my girl and me as…I cannot fix it and make it better. I know there is nothing that I can do that will change what happened to her. What is so frustrating to me is, I do not know if she is OK, I cannot protect her and I cannot do so many of the things that I use to do to keep her safe. Once she was gone, I realized that I was not prepared for all the emotions and pain following her death. Please know that I competely understand what you are feeling and that I know it is not easy. I am so sorry your girl had to go. Magic please give Ella lots of those sweet "boxer loves" that you use to give to me.

 

[Jan]

I understand how you feel. Our boxers are all so precious to us! I lost Markus in April and tears still come to my eyes when I think of him.

 

[Roxy_girl]

I know all the range of emotions that go with the loss of a furbaby we lost our rottie in Aug I'm still crying too when i drive home from work and know i wont have one of the couches taken up by big black mass that grunts as you open the door after waking him up or the cold wet nose that creeps under the blanket looking for vunerable toes and i now have to walk to the end of the driveway to get the paper instead of opening the door and saying go get it !!
After 2 days of my son (6) stroking my hair asking if mommy was going to be happy again if we got another dog i started to look for a boxer breeder. so i now wait for the arrival of our first boxer baby and still shed a few tears over Bear.

 

[ZoeRestorick]

I agree that a memorial to your special girl will help you begin to heal and will be satisfying to you that she is being properly remembered and will be forever.
A tree, a plaque, some artwork or getting a beautiful photo framed or maybe write your feelings down. In time, when your heart is ready, you wll probably want a new baby in your life and in your home to help fill the void. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[Britbox]

I am so sorry for your loss. you are going through the natural grieving process of losing your beloved Ellla, please believe me, I have been there..., I used to think please God give me my Poppy back for just one day, because the pain was almost too much to bear, just to feel her and smell her scent, but then I knew that I would have to give her back again. Your baby is at peace, and will never leave you, she will live in your heart forever. I know it seems hard to believe today, when you are in such pain, but things will get easier with time..you will never forget, but things will get better, you gave your baby a wonderful life, Look after yourself and know that we are thinking of you and sending you loving thoughts at this very sad time. with lots iof love and Boxer kisses. xxxx

 

[DI_411]

I just wanted to thank everyone for your amazingly kind and wonderful words. This place is sacred to me... it was Ella that brought me to this board seeking answers for all those "first time puppy" question that nobody seemed to understand except other Boxer owners and in some way I guess it's her that keeps me coming back. You are an amazingly loving and kind group of people. It's no wonder you are all dog owners..... I could only hope that every animal would have owners that love as much as all of you.

This is a long road...it's hard road...it's a road filled with ruts and holes but I know that my girl is looking down on me making sure I'm okay. I know she would want me to be okay because the way she always licked my face when I cried. So frantic like "please mom..stop doing that" and I'm trying to be okay. Her brother is keeping me smiling, but she was my first.. my baby and that bond was so strong. Some days I'm ready for another little girl and others I can't imagine bringing another dog into my house. I guess it's just not time for me yet. Thanks again everyone - it's nice to know I'm not alone in this.

 

[chrismangels]

I am so sorry for your loss...I know exactly how you feel, our boy Slash passed away a little over two months ago (he was nearly 13 years old). And yes: it hurts like hell and the pain won't go away. Maybe you should try (if you're up to it) what I did: I simply refuse to to let him out of my head. That way it feels (sort of) that he is still around. In our livingroom we've put a giant picture of him and we've placed pictures of him all over the place. His toys are still around. Don't try to get your baby out of your head, instead embrace the thought that some day you WILL meet again. I'm an atheïst, so I believe in no god, but I rest assured that one day we all be reunited. If i were to be mistaken, don't you think life itself would be one big sick joke???
You are in my thoughts, and so is your baby.

 

[brunosmommy]

...to stop being so sad. My Ella has been gone only 2 months and I feel like it's been forever since I had her next to me. I still cry almost everyday at some point or another. I can barely hear her name or see pictures of her because it breaks my heart so much.

I totally understand... it is so hard. It has only been one month for me since my loss. I still have pictures up of Bruno. I have dreams of when he was put to sleep which wake me up. I can't read about cancer without bawling. What is the lesson to be learned? We get these wonderful creatures knowing that we will out live them and yet we still give them our hearts. That is what unconditional love is isn't it? Are we supposed to be that way with everyone? If so, I think I would be crying all of the time. Why is life so painful, I don't know? I know I haven't been much help in for you in your time of grief, but know that you are not the only one going through it... I'm here to talk...

 

[Mama_Zookeeper]

Hugs to you, it is not easy to lose someone you love. Unfortunately you are in good company here as many of us have lost a fur baby. I can still tell you how many minutes exactly it took for Rocky's heart to stop beating and it was over 4 years ago. My Bluto has been gone for 18 months and I would do anything in the world to see one of his silly special cartwheels again. It is not something you get over, but you do learn to cope more with time. Be strong, Rocky & I send you many slurps & kisses.

Dora