I am having back surgery... need BW prayers

[Cypress' Mom]

update...

Thank you guys for all your kinds words and prayers. As for the surgery, I postponed it. My work forgot to tell me I was out of short term disability and now I have been with out a paycheck for 4 weeks. I have to apply for my long term disability and see when I will get that. Just not something I want to be worrying about after a major surgery.
j8kat-- A fusion is similar to the surgery they do for scoliosis I think. They take out two disks and put bone in place of them. Then they put rods and screws into the vertebre to hold me all in place until the bone fuses. I am so glad you are doing so well after your surgery! I just wish I could have gone in and gotten it done with.
I am terrified of the pain after words. I am really really a big wuss. Poor Cyper has even suffered cause I can't walk very far now and forget running with him. He has gotten a little chunky. My doc sent me to physical therapy (again) in the mean time to see if I could get any relieve. Strong pain meds are not even cutting through the pain now. My si joint was stuck and I was all locked up and walking had become a major chore. My right hip would not even rotate. Well in therapy yesterday she got it to unlock what ever that means and I can walk a little better today but my leg pain is horrible. I had a really hard time sleeping last nite. They think my hip is locking up to protect the injured disks. I have been so sad and depressed lately. I cry all the time and little stupid things bother me. Cyper has become my shadow. He follows me all over the house and just checks to make sure I am ok. He is not allowed up on our bed unless we invite him up and the other morning I woke up to a snoring boxer right next to me. I think he knew it would be ok and he knew mom needed comfort. I didn't have the heart to make him get down and I think he knew that. He is such a sweetie. This community is so great. I don't really post alot but I sure read all the time and it makes me so happy. It is about the only thing that is making me happy anymore. Anyway I just wanted to update and thank everyone for their kind words and thoughts. It means alot to me. And hopefully my paper work will get straightened out and I can finally get this all done. Take care... You have all brought joy to my day. Thank you so much.
Jess

 

[ljnash]

Jess,

Try not to be terrified of the pain after surgery (easier said than done, I know). It may be painful for the first few days, but I'm betting that you are in more pain now than you will be after surgery!!

Let us know when your new date is set!!

Lenore

 

[j8kat]

Hang in there. You have come this far already and you will be fine. Pain is something that can be overcome and soon you will forget all about it. I too, have the rods, pins and all sorts of metal, so don't be afraid as it will help you!!
Your puppy seems to know how you are feeling. I am glad that can be a source of support for you. Nothing like a snoring puppy to bring comfort!!
I hope that you get your long term disability sorted out so that you can start putting your fears to rest and start the recovery process.
Please keep us updated!!

Jenn, Mateus & Taya

 

[craZ4HERKIE]

~~~~~~~healing vibe~~~~~~~~Hope you are feeling better soon!I know I would be a baby about the pain....so don't be ashamed!Keep us updated on how you are doing!

Jessica, Herkie & Kuma

 

[Cypress' Mom]

A little long

Hi All. First I just want to say thanks for the support. I have been pretty depressed and emotional lately. I haven't been to work since July when my back got really bad and have been going a little stir crazy lately. And I'm not even feeling up to doing much of anything. All though Cypress has enjoyed having me all to his self all day long. Thats the only good thing out of this whole mess. I had been doing physical therapy again in the hopes that something different would come out but on Friday they told me that pretty much the nerve was incredible irratated and surgery would probably be my best bet. So darn it! I'm calling my doctor tomarrow to set a new surgery date and all the new blood donations, office visits, and what not. I'm still fighting with my long term disability as they are considering my back to be prexisting. It is so frusterating. My BF has been very supportive but I feel bad he has had to pick up extra hours at work and has been very busy. It's amazing when a part of your income gets cut out and you have to make do with the nessesities. It has been a wake up call to us that maybe we should have saved more for something like this. Ohhh the joys of finances on top of everything else. We are debating about taking out some equity in our house out. And he want to buy an engagement ring by the end of the year. (Which I have been waiting for for 5 years! ) I guess thats what we get for living together, buying our house, cars and everything first before we got married. We went about it a little backwards. Oh well what can ya do? So again thanks for all the support and prayers. Keep um coming and I'll keep ya all updated. Thanks!!
Jess