Can't believe he's gone.

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matthew_o50

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2 years ago I signed up for boxerworld when our boxer Fred died with cancer and we were getting a new pup. Now our baby Rufus has had to be put down. We can't believe it. On Sunday he was a bit sick and depressed, his bark was very weak and almost sounded like a seal. We thought he had the flu as it has been in the house for a few weeks and he was lying with me in bed while I was recovering. As the week progressed he had bad and good moments. Yesterday we took him to the vet because he didn't want to eat and wouldn't drink. He got injections and we were told that he was not dehidrated or anything but to bring him back today for another injection to make him better. Last night he really picked up, wagging his little stump of a tail and butt at everyone that came into the house. He was even about to do his party trick (climbing on top of the dinner table) but we stopped him. He ate some chicken and drank water.

This morning I slept in as I am off college for Easter. While I was still in bed mum and dad took him to the vet. They told her that his breathing was very heavy and that he wouldn't eat his breakfast. At this point we thought that he may have swallowed something that was stuck in him and we asked for him to be xrayed and for some other tests to be carried out on him. Mum and Dad came home leaving Rufus at the vets. Mum made him homemade vegetable and chicken soup for him coming home.

At 3.30pm the vet called us to say that she had bad news. There were 2 large tumors inside his rib cage which were bleeding and flooding his lungs. She said that it would not be possible to operate because they were so big and because he was such a young dog he would more than likely have them again. The vet also said that he was still asleep from the sadation that he was given for the xray. Mum asked the vet what she should do and she said that she would put him to sleep if it was her dog so mum told her to go ahead while he was still asleep because she didn't want him to suffer anymore. We couldn't drive to the vet to be with him beause he would have been wakened by the time we got back. We're getting his ashes back to burry in the garden.

The entire family are absolutly devistated! Rufus' mum, our other boxer Elsa doesn't know where he is. We are hoping that she won't miss him too much but we can't tell at the minute. I'm lost, I have no heart to do anything. I just can't believe this happened when he was just 2 years old! He was a fantastic dog/son/brother and we will never stop loving him. I wish all the pain and sadness would go away but it won't for a long, long time. Elsa came up to me today and give me a boxer hug when I was crying, no kisses like she usually does just the biggest hug she has ever given me it is thanks to Rufus that we have her and I am so glad we do.

Rufus was 1 of 2 surviving pups when he was born. The rest of the pups died inside Elsa making her extremely ill and she almost died too. Rufus was born dead but was resusated by a student vet. When we bought him from the breeder we knew he was special but the love and character this little man had was beyond imagination. Several months after getting Rufus the breeder gave us Elsa because she couldn't have any more pups. They were sole mates. Did everything and went everywhere together. Where one was the other wasn't far behind. To us he was our baby brother and son for mum and dad. I am an 18 year old and haven't cried so much in my life since our last wee man died.

I love boxers to pieces and have always said that I will have loads when I get older but the pain that I am going through at the minute I couldn't bear to loose another and wouldn't get one because of it.

Rest in peace baby Ru we will love you forever. You will always be in our hearts and thoughts along with Freddy. Look after each other until we meet again someday.

Thank you for reading and I am sorry for the long post.

Matthew
 

cody&duke

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I am so sorry for you and your families loss. I know how hard it is. Rufus was too young. You are very lucky to have themtogether. I love their pictures.

I hope Elsa is not too sad. I think she knew because she gave you a hug. My Cody waited until his dad (my bf) was out of town to have to be put to sleep because he knew how hard it would be for him to say good-bye.
 

Poohsmom

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Matthew, I'm sooo sorry for your loss. It is never,ever easy when we lose our best friends,even more so when they are so young. Take comfort in knowing that Rufus is watching over you from the bridge,breathing easy once again and playing with all of his new friends. Always remember the good times you had,and know that he knew how much he was loved.

PLease give Elsa extra hugs and kisses from us.Keeping you and your family in our thoughts and prayers.

Sue and the kids,Pooh,Bownser,Dozer & Cissy
Buddy & Dusty,romping at the bridge angelicon

Godspeed sweet Rufus angelicon
 

matthew_o50

Boxer Buddy
Thank you so much for your kind replies it means a lot to me. I wish today was just a dream and when I wake up in the morning both dogs will be lieing together:(. I know however that Rufus would not want me to be sad and so I ate his vegetable and chicken soup for him. Still crying my heart out though. Elsa is going to be fed up with all of the hugs and kisses she's getting.
 

Tiggershark

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I am so sorry for your loss of such a young baby. Your time together was definitely too short. Cherish your memories together. He certainly was a special baby. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts during this difficult time.
 

sgbtab

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matthew I am so sorry for your loss. boxers are so special and I know he is at that rainbow bridge playing not in pain any more. I always believed that it takes a great owner to know when to say goodbye. angelicon he will never leave you and I bet that elsa see's him playing now just look at her staring into space now angelicon
 

Jan

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I am so sorry! He was way too young to die. Fred and Rufus are now playing together at the rainbow bridge. God speed Rufous.
 

Julie P.

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matthew_o50 said:
I wish today was just a dream and when I wake up in the morning both dogs will be lieing together.
I wish it were just a dream for you also, I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I know how you feel when you mentioned you might never get another boxer because of the pain you have had to go through. I felt the same way after loosing Magic. I do not think I have ever felt as much pain as when I lost my girl. Sometimes, I feel like a part of me died after she left me. Now, I have Deeg. I worry myself constantly about loosing him...but I know in the deepest part of my heart that it is a huge risk I am taking; one that is worth taking. However, if I loose him, I too may never get another...I do not think I could endure another painful loss due to health problems/tragedy. I wish with my whole heart that our sweet little friends could pass away peacefully in their sleep from old age. I resent the fact that I did not get to see my girl age and have asked myself repeatedly..."Why did this have to happen?" I never get an answer to this question...ever. Once again, I am so very sorry for Rufus. I wish so much that this was not so. Please know my thoughts are with you during this time of sorrow. Good Bye Sweet, Rufus.

"Magic, please give Rufus lots of boxer loves..he needs it so much."
http://www.boxerworld.com/forums/showthread.php?t=62195&page=1
 
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