My Magic
Each time I read your post I have such a difficult time replying to it. Even today, I have tears streaming down my cheeks. I lost my female boxer, Magic on 9/17/04. It was one of the worst times in my life. I had a huge hole in my heart and felt so much agony that I wondered if I were in hell or not. All Magic's sweet habits and favorite things were in ever part of our home and yard. I started reading BW shortly after her death.
It has only been a month and 1/2 now. We rescued a boxer boy from San Jose rescue. The first week and a half was rough as our boy, Deeg, was such a puppy with a lot of bad habits. I was so exhausted from taking care of Magic during her illness that having a puppy about did me in.
I do not know if I did the right thing by getting Deeg. I was so afraid to open my heart again. If you would have asked me a few months ago if I had taken this step shortly after loosing my girl...I would flat out said "no way!" I know for sure, we would not have Deeg if we stayed away from the Boxer Rescue. I guess visiting the Boxer Rescue broke my heart; I saved a boxer from a homeless life. I think my Magic would be happy about that.
I love Magic so much; she was my best friend. I still to this day want to see her again, if even for an hour. Deeg has a hard act to follow. Nevertheless, he is helping us in so many ways. He does so many little things that Magic use to do that it is a comfort to me. Getting a new dog so soon after Magic was hard but as the days go by I am learning that I have a lot of love to give and Deeg is becoming a big part of our family.
I know, that a new one will enter you life at the right time. It will happen when you least expect it. I am hoping that your heart is healing; time seems to go by so slow during the healing process.
Julie, Magic, and rescue boxer boy Deeg