jeffisonline
Boxer Buddy
After months of tests, needles, fluid removal the vets have informed me that we can't remove anymore fluid from Orson because it is doing damage to his blood.
Orson has cancer( condrosarcoma ), and a heart based mass, and he also has a growth on his pancreus.
I wanted to do anything I could to make him better, but I have done everything I could do.
I had fallen asleep ( I am sick with the flu ) and Orson came into the room and woke me up with a few nudges...He started to pant, and fell over...He fell over from the fluid build up around his heart...I rushed him into emergency on Tuesday night at the University Of Pennsylvania, he had fluid removed from his chest and belly, he came home on x-mas eve, and within hours he had built almost all of the fluid up again.
He starts caughing from the fluid filling his lungs, and he has a lot of trouble getting comfortable.
He was very groggy from the sedation to remove the fluid, and slept most of x-mas eve...
We have a friend who is a vet, and I called him, and he gave us Lasix to try to pass some of the fluid, and some antibiotics, but nearly 24 hours later nothing has improved, only gotten worse.
I called out vet friend back, and he said he would be more than happy to come over and put Orson to sleep at our house when it's time.
I of course, didn't want to ever have to do anything like this, but as I have called a million people, and made 22 visits to the vets over the last 4 months, and spent thousands of dollars, I fear the time is very soon.
A vet in the emergency room told me that Orson will let me know when the time is right, and this morning when I was feeding him meat loaf (he loves it) he looked into my eyes with a deep sadness, and discomfort that told me he was not OK anymore.
The hardest part of this is his mental state, he's mentally fine, but his body is sick, so he still comes to me for comfort, he still has his personality, it's just his body is filling up with fluid, and his pot belly is very very hard to look at.
He sits in the middle of the room, he falls asleep sitting, I think because the fluid builds up when he lays down, and he coughs...As much as I know all the things I just wrote about, I am having the hardest most difficult feelings I have ever had, and it's still difficult knowing all that I know to make the call to have our Vet put Orson to sleep.
It is afterall, Christmas.
This is by far one of the worse Christmas's I have ever had, and why this is all coming to ahead today I'll never know...But this whole holiday is ruined from me, and I will not be celebrating anyting this year...I won't be visiting my family, or opening presents, or having dinner with friends or family, I will be here trying to make Orson comfortable untill I make that call, and than when he is being put to sleep, I will be facing the most difficult feelings I have ever had...
Nothing is making this any easier to deal with...I can't bare never seeing him again, it's been 9 years, and he has always been there to make me feel good, and to give me responsability, now it's my turn to make him feel good, and to be there for him.
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Happy Holidays!
Orson has cancer( condrosarcoma ), and a heart based mass, and he also has a growth on his pancreus.
I wanted to do anything I could to make him better, but I have done everything I could do.
I had fallen asleep ( I am sick with the flu ) and Orson came into the room and woke me up with a few nudges...He started to pant, and fell over...He fell over from the fluid build up around his heart...I rushed him into emergency on Tuesday night at the University Of Pennsylvania, he had fluid removed from his chest and belly, he came home on x-mas eve, and within hours he had built almost all of the fluid up again.
He starts caughing from the fluid filling his lungs, and he has a lot of trouble getting comfortable.
He was very groggy from the sedation to remove the fluid, and slept most of x-mas eve...
We have a friend who is a vet, and I called him, and he gave us Lasix to try to pass some of the fluid, and some antibiotics, but nearly 24 hours later nothing has improved, only gotten worse.
I called out vet friend back, and he said he would be more than happy to come over and put Orson to sleep at our house when it's time.
I of course, didn't want to ever have to do anything like this, but as I have called a million people, and made 22 visits to the vets over the last 4 months, and spent thousands of dollars, I fear the time is very soon.
A vet in the emergency room told me that Orson will let me know when the time is right, and this morning when I was feeding him meat loaf (he loves it) he looked into my eyes with a deep sadness, and discomfort that told me he was not OK anymore.
The hardest part of this is his mental state, he's mentally fine, but his body is sick, so he still comes to me for comfort, he still has his personality, it's just his body is filling up with fluid, and his pot belly is very very hard to look at.
He sits in the middle of the room, he falls asleep sitting, I think because the fluid builds up when he lays down, and he coughs...As much as I know all the things I just wrote about, I am having the hardest most difficult feelings I have ever had, and it's still difficult knowing all that I know to make the call to have our Vet put Orson to sleep.
It is afterall, Christmas.
This is by far one of the worse Christmas's I have ever had, and why this is all coming to ahead today I'll never know...But this whole holiday is ruined from me, and I will not be celebrating anyting this year...I won't be visiting my family, or opening presents, or having dinner with friends or family, I will be here trying to make Orson comfortable untill I make that call, and than when he is being put to sleep, I will be facing the most difficult feelings I have ever had...
Nothing is making this any easier to deal with...I can't bare never seeing him again, it's been 9 years, and he has always been there to make me feel good, and to give me responsability, now it's my turn to make him feel good, and to be there for him.
Thanks For Reading, please respond to jeffisonline@yahoo.com
Happy Holidays!
